Ti amo tanto
I love you so much
I bit my nails while staring at my phone. Hindi ko na maalala kung gaano katagal na akong nakatitig sa phone ko. I know what ‘ti amo’ means ever since, but I don't know why I'm staring at my phone for an hour now. Did I really hear it right?
Ti amo tanto ba talaga ang sinabi niya kanina? Baka naman tarantado?
“Fuck!”
I groaned in irritation and punched my pillow. I want to ask him again but of course I won't do that. How can I make him open up about it without telling it to him? Damn, this is so frustrating.
Natigilan ako nang lumabas na ng banyo si Zak. He's just wearing pajamas, wala siyang damit pang-itaas at basa ang buhok niya. I unconsciously bit my lower lip while staring at him. Palagi ko namang nakikita ang katawan niya pero hindi masanay-sanay ang sistema ko.
“Are you alright? You seem mad,” he murmured and sat beside me. He hugged my waist and nuzzled on my neck. Napaka-clingy niya talaga.
“I'm not, let me go nga, magbihis ka muna,” masungit na asik ko at itinulak siya palayo.
Tumayo na lang siya at kumuha ng t-shirt sa drawer at isinuot 'yon. Medyo na-dismaya ako nang matakpan na ang matipunong katawan niya, pero ako naman kasi ang nagsabing magdamit siya.
Lumapit ulit sa 'kin si Zak. Umupo si Zak sa tabi ko at muling yumakap sa 'kin.
“Thank you for spending the night with me, thank you for making my birthday more special,” he murmured and nuzzled on my neck. I just scoffed and pushed him a little.
“Ten times mo ng sinasabi 'yan,” masungit na sabi ko at pinilit ko na lang na mag-focus sa phone ko kahit nasa kanya naman talaga ang atensyon ko.
“That was the first time I celebrated my birthday,” he mumbled.
Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. My eyes widened and looked at him with disbelief as my mouth agape. I put my phone on the bedside table while still staring at him.
“Are you fucking kidding me?” I asked and raised my eyebrow at him.
“No, I don't celebrate my birthday because for me it's not necessary. For some unknown reason, I just thought of celebrating it with you yesterday.”
I sighed and stared in his blue eyes, mukhang seryoso nga siya. Mukha namang hindi siya malungkot habang sinasabi ang mga 'yon, pero bakit nga ba nagtataka pa ako? Madalas naman wala siyang emosyon.
“Bakit hindi ka nagce-celebrate ng birthday mo?” Iyon na lang ang lumabas sa bibig ko.
Zakarius scratched his nape and licked his lower lip.
“I don't know... As far as I know, we celebrate our birthday because we are happy that we were born. I do not celebrate my birthday because I am not happy that I was born. Well, am I making any sense here?” he asked and avoided my gaze. He gave me an awkward smile and looked at me again.
“Ahm... you must be so sad, I'm sorry,” I mumbled. I honestly don't know what to say. Should I make him feel better? Should I hug him? I don't know.
His forehead creased while staring at me.
“I'm not sad about it,” he defended.
“You said you're not happy about it, then you're sad...” I mumbled. Fuck. I'm not making any sense too.
He just gave me a half smile and then chuckled. Natawa na rin ako dahil doon. Para pala kaming ewan dalawa. Ano ba 'tong pinagsasasabi namin?
Napatitig ako sa kanya, napatitig din siya sa 'kin. His eyes are telling me something I couldn't explain, his eyes are always emotionless, this time, his eyes are showing me something he doesn't show to anyone. My heart skipped a beat, my system is in ruckus again.
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