Both of them were just looking for sex until feelings got involved, secrets unfolded, and unconditional love was thrown into their whirlwind of violence, trust issues, and revenge. No matter the circumstances, the two were drawn together like magnet...
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"So Dallas, how are you feeling today?" My therapists asks as I stretch out on the couch.
"I'm doing good. Better than I was months ago. My life has changed a lot since I've been coming here."
"That's good. Explain how it has changed."
She writes down her responses and mine as I continue talking, looking at the pictures on the wall instead of facing her. It's easier to talk this way.
"Before coming here, I was spiraling downhill. I drank and smoke until I blacked out every night. I was so angry and didn't care who feelings I hurt because my feelings were hurt about the situation with Milani. Now I've started more positive activities like hooping and playing the game. I put the bottle down, but I do still smoke, not as much though. I've started to be nice to the people around me and I apologized to Chanel and Tae for the way I talked to them when Milani left."
"What else is going on in the lives of others around you? How are they dealing with Milani being gone? I know everyone cared so much about her."
"Chanel and Brandon got back together about three months after Milani left. I talked about everything with Brandon and we boys again. He blamed Chanel instead of me so they had to work through that shit themselves. Tae and his girlfriend are expecting so he doesn't come around much. He's too busy preparing to be a father. He's changed his life around a lot. He's on the honor roll at school, he's able to completely walk without any help, he's started working and stopped smoking. My pops proposed to his lil nurse, Hazel. I told him not to because I don't trust her. She's hiding something but I don't know what it is. I think everyone is dealing with Milani leaving in their own ways. When we're all together we don't talk about her at all."
"Okay Dallas, give me a minute to write everything down. While I'm doing that I want you to think about this question: what are you waiting on to get your family back? I've been seeing your progress and I think you're ready to be the man Milani needs you to be."
As she writes, I start to think about the question. I know exactly what is holding me back, but I can't tell her. She'll have to report what I'm saying and I don't need that shit. That's the same reason I didn't tell her that I almost killed myself when Milani left.
"I don't know." I lie smoothly.
"What do you mean you don't know? There has to be something that is holding you back." She says, looking concerned.
"I said I don't know."
"We're done for today, Dallas. At your next appointment, I'll be expecting the truth. I can see it all over your face that you're conflicted about something and I hope you tell me what that is next time."
Getting up from the couch, I walk out of her office and stop at the front desk to pay for today's session. One thing about Doctor James, she'll end the session when you start lying and I'm glad because I couldn't stay in there while she's asking me what I'm waiting on to get my family back.
