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𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭

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maybe.. everyone forgot?

the video i'm watching on tiktok really made me rethink my life choices and everything.

"if no one remembers your birthday — i'm sorry but you should know that your friends.. not really your friends"

my heart aches a little.. maybe just a little bit. okay maybe a lot.

it's just— not really a big deal you know. yeah. not really a big deal. anyway. i've gotta stream coming up soon with the others and i have to get ready.

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"well hello everyone!" i smile towards the camera as i just wait for everyone else to join.

they've already sent through bits and subs which i highly appreciate. "thanks gonkmonkey for the sub" i smile once more.

few moments later, the discord chat says they're ready for some valorant.

after a bit, i logged onto the game and waited for the rest. "thanks younghip for the 10 subs!"

"hello? can anyone hear me?" rae says into her mic. "uh hello!" "sykkuno? hi!!" i giggle "hi rae"

so.. she really forgot my birthday huh..

shoot. no stop thinking about that, bad sykkuno.

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"okay well, that was fun guys.. thanks for the 50!! subs!! goodman!! oh my god!" i cover my mouth.

"anyway.. uh.. i'll see you guys tomorrow maybe" i slightly smile towards the camera, waving.

i end the live and my slight smile from before died down, releasing a sigh. "okay.. everything's okay sykkuno. everything. is. okay." i say to myself.

realisation just hit me, i'm just here sitting here, letting thoughts overtake my mind.

everything was damaging me. my horrid thoughts constantly overtaking.

well.. i guess it's okay since chat somehow remembers my birthday. yeah, you know what? everything will be fine.

maybe food will help me ease these concepts.

it's been a few hours since my live stream; time is currently 10pm and all i've been doing is stay in my room, playing games on my pc like usual.

after few hours, i've just grown tired so im going to go sleep.

decisions were made and so i just went to sleep till tomorrow morning i guess. maybe when i wake up when it's not my birthday, i'll just be alright.

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"sykkuno.." the familiar voice calls out to me. i hummed, moving to the other side so i could sleep peacefully.

the voice repeats itself. "what?" i groggily announce annoyedly, waking myself up. as my eye opens i realised who was right in front of me.