My Yoongi My Privilege - Swaggy Girlfriend

Lost Me

Myself and Ara got ready by 3 that afternoon and drove to staples centre(arena). Thousands of Army were already gathered there. We had to wait in a long queue to enter the stadium. We were so excited and got goosebumps to meet lot of Army friends, to watch and sing with the boys as, it was our first time attending a live concert.

I didn’t tell Ara about the incidents on plane (and I knew she will beat my ass for hiding it), but I waited for the right time. After the security check, went in and everyone were settling in their respective places. We waited for the show to start. Sharply at 5, the concert started with “Black Swan”. The set list had seven songs from BE and songs from the previous albums. We could see their faces clearly on the big screen. We were not too close to the stage. They sang and danced in black outfits but, my eyes were only on Suga. He looked stunning. When they sang ‘Life goes on’, we sang along with them. This moment was so overwhelming. The whole stadium turned into a purple ocean, not only with army bombs but also with army’s tears. The concert finally ended after solid three hours.

And it was the time for their thanks-giving speech. As always, Each member shared how they felt and Namjoon translated it in English. First, it was Jimin, next, Jungkook- whose English was much improved then, he tried his best to convey his thoughts in English. Then….it was Suga.

Slakdfndlsidflsajshdkanskielaksjdfld – This was all I could understand except Gamsahabnida, yeoreobun saranghae, and at last…I lob you!

Namjoon translated his words for us – “Suga wants to convey his wishes for army for passing those hard days of the past year, happy that we were able to meet now and enjoy together. He wants to thank you all for being with him and supporting him, during his break. He got lots of love and energy whenever he was down. He said his shoulders are now strong enough to lean over…”
Army: Awwwww……..

“And he’ll carry army on his shoulders in coming days. Because of you, he smiles and laughs from his heart after so many days. And…he said he Loves you!!”

A part of the crowd started chanting “Min Yoongi….”

And it intensified spreading inside the whole arena “Min Yoongi Min Yoongi Min Yoongi..”

Suga shyly laughed. But I cried, with the braveness that it won’t be overheard. I cried…that my lungs were running out of breath and my eyes turning bloody red. Ara was totally confused. She thought I was crying for the chant. But it was not the case. How come I didn’t ask him about his health? Why didn’t I care about his shoulders? I failed to be a dutiful fan. I blamed myself for acting like a jerk and felt I don’t have the right even to spell his name. 

The concert ended and slowly everyone started moving out of the arena. I didn’t have the heart to go out without meeting Suga and apologize. It was not an easy job. I can’t even go near him unless he permits or wish that. But I had no other choice other than leaving the place. When we were about to reach the exit door, the announcement was made “Ms. Y/N, we found your bag and your book, please collect it near the stage. Ms. Y/N, come near the stage immediately”

It worked. Ten minutes back, I placed my bag with Colleen Hoover's 'It ends with us' book, only my name written on the first page.

I started running. I ran and ran...through those seats and screens and reached the stage. There were plenty of Army and few staff scattered around the arena.

When I stopped near the stage breathing heavily, I saw him. Reading my book with a cool attitude, Suga was sitting on a bench.

"Huh...Huh..Huh" It was my breath.

Him: I know you did it on purpose. You will lose anything accidently but not your book.

(I didn't lose only my book Mr. Suga)

Me: So, you accidently lost this card in my book? (I showed the card inked by him which I brought with me)
He smirked and nodded his head.
I continued...
"And-and-I'm extremely sorry"

Him: (Confused) Why?

Me: Umm...(I didn't know how to express it) I...Umm...How is your arm...Shoulder? You okay?

Him: Yah..I'm alright. It was due to an accident which...

Me: (I stopped him) I know..I know it all...I'm sorry I should've told you..that...I had to hide it because..I'm afraid for some reasons...Uhh...Well...I'm an army too...

Him: You sorry for that? I knew you are an army since we talked for the first time!

I was surprised.

Me: Wait-what?!? But-hoe?? (My voice already started to fade)

Him: I knew it when you said my name. I knew it when you said "You are Suga". Your tone of saying my name was filled with dignity, respect and pride, the pleasure of knowing me, which can't be said by an ordinary person unless an army!
Tears rolled down my eyes and I felt more guilty now.

I said "Oppa....”

I ran and hugged him tight "I'm sorry."

.....To be continued