Drivers license

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Word Count:about 580
Warnings: mentions of cheating, like 2 swears.
A/n: just a quick post before I go to bed. Is anyone else obsessed with this song? I love it and I hope you guys like this!

You thought about him again. This time the thought of him made tears roll down your cheeks. You had been grieving the end of your relationship for 6 months even though you only broke up with him 2 months ago. You weren't handling it well so, you decided to do something about your feelings and the thoughts of things you wish you could say to him. You were going to write a letter to him, you weren't sure if you would send it or not but you needed to let these feelings out.

Dear Steve,

I can't believe I'm even doing this. We've been broken up for 2 months now but, it feels longer. Do you know why? It's because we both gave up towards the end, we were over before you did what you did. Which is so fucked up by the way because we would've been great if we lasted longer.

I've been thinking about you lately. I've been going on drives a lot, in the car you helped me pick out. I drove past the parking lot where the mall used to be before, that whole thing happened. It made me think of the nights where we would meet there during our breaks that we scheduled at the same time even though I worked at Macy's and you worked at Scoops.

That's the same parking lot you taught me how to drive, you were the worst teacher by the way. When I finally got my license, you were so excited for me. I was so excited to be able to pick you up for dates and to drive you around. I never got to do that.

The kids don't talk about you in front of me anymore. I guess after seeing me break down twice, once while we were still dating by the way, was enough for them to not even mention you in front of me.

You know that I can't even look at red cars anymore without thinking of you? I used to feel bad for talking about you in front of my single friends, I wanted to share my happiness and love that I had because of you and now I try to block you from my memory.

We weren't perfect, far from it actually but, you know what sucks the most? You cheated on me with my best friend, you were the two people I trusted the most, and you both fucked up. All of my friends took her side, leaving me completely alone. I have the party still but they were your party first. They'll follow you into the dark, especially Dustin. I still love you. Oh my god, that hurts to write.

So now, here I am, alone. I have to start over fresh and by doing this I'm driving past your street for one last time, I'm putting this in your mailbox to let you know, that I still love you and I miss you and I can't believe you did that i can't believe you did that to me, then I'm getting the fuck out of here, my bags are packed and I have an apartment waiting for me. I thought you changed? I guess no one can change that much.

Fuck you,

You folded it and put it in an envelope. And drove to his house one last time. You would push Steve Harrington to the back of your mind. You were moving on and getting a fresh start. 

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