Avengers broken

Ch. 45 "My Darkness"

                                          Hayden POV 

I see Clint not looking too happy, 

"Well?" He said 

I sighed 

"Not particularly," I said 

He arched his brow,

"Downstairs now, Hayden," Clint said not sounding happy, 

I sighed walking down the stairs knowing there is no use to argue with an angry assassin I thought 

"Sit," Clint said motioning to the table, 

The kids were no where to be found I'm just assuming that they are at school, 

I sat in the chair slouching crossing my arms, 

"Hayden I've been trying to be patient with you, but when you keep just blocking everything" Clint said 

"I don't know what you mean?" I said slouching, 

"That right there," He said 

"You were doing good for a while what changed?" He said 

At this point Laura entered the room, 

"Nothing changed," I mumbled 

"Oh yeah it has, and I know it has something to do with what they put you through," Clint said 

I just rolled my eyes, 

"Who?" I said 

"Your parents, HYDRA," Clint said 

"Pfft, it's nothing I can't handle," I said 

"It's something you shouldn't have to handle," Laura said 

Clint nodded 

"And I beg to differ, I think whatever they did to you is eating you alive," Clint said 

"Look, I'm fine, alright, so stop worrying," I said I stood up, 

"Were never going to stop worrying Hayden," Laura said 

"Look we all know worrying about me is a lost cause, so don't waste your breath on me," I said walking out of the house, 

                                       Clint POV 

I groaned bringing my hand to my face as I sat in the chair, 

"You weren't joking when you said she put up a dense wall," Lara said sitting next to me 

I nodded, 

"I know you don't see it, but I do, she's suffering Clint," Laura said 

I looked at her, 

"How can you tell?" I said 

"Call it motherly intuition," She said smiling at me, 

"Maybe I should talk to her," She said 

I looked at her, 

"I mean I did get her to open up to me last time," She said smiling at me, 

I sighed 

"Alright, but let her cool off first," I said 

She nodded 

                                 Hayden POV 

I was sat in a tree, one of the branches one leg laying straight on the branch while the other dangled off of it, swinging back and forth, 

"What are you doing up there," I heard a calm soft voice 

I see Laura, I smiled and jumped down, 

"It helps me think," I said 

She smiled at me, 

"Hayden I know lately life hasn't been too fair to you," She said 

"But please talk to me, I know you are hurting I want to understand why," She said 

"I can't.." I said trailing off, 

I stared out at the field, 

"The things they made me do, Laura I don't want to bring that darkness on you or your family, that's why I need to keep that darkness buried," I said 

"But if you don't talk to somebody about it, it's going to consume you," She said softly 

"I can't the things I've done, and I couldn't do anything to stop it," I said 

I felt tears welling up in my eyes but I shook my head to stop them, 

"It's alright Hayden," She said brushing some of my hair behind my ear, 

I shook my head, 

"I should have been able to stop it, I've done terrible things, and I couldn't stop it, I couldn't do anything except their bidding," I said feeling the tears fall from my eyes, and dripping off of my cheeks, 

"All because my parents hated me, because of my existence, don't you see, you need to stop trying to get through to me, because if my parents know I'm a lost cause, so should you and Clint, I'm a lost cause," I said 

Laura brought me into a hug, I felt my knees give out, and she fell to her knees with me,

"We are not like your parents, you are not a loss cause, please don't talk like that," Laura said as she petted my hair 

"You are so much more than you put yourself out to be, Clint tells me you are very skilled, very smart, your parents are the one's who are a loss cause," She said 

I dont understand why, but when Laura talks to me, I feel at peace, she has this gift to get me to open up even when I don't want to, even when I feel at my lowest, she still gets me to feel better no matter what I'm feeling, I thought 

                                   Clint POV 

I watch as Hayden and Laura talked then I see it, the wall break, as Hayden falls to her knees along with Laura and Laura comforts her, 

Laura has Hayden pulled close to her like Hayden is one of her own, as Hayden heaves from crying so hard, 

How does she get Hayden to open up to her so easily, me and the avengers have been at it for months, and once we feel like we knock down a wall, she brings up a tougher one, But Laura knocks down those walls so easily, 

I guess this is one of the qualities that made me fall for her in the first place, maybe a few more days and we can actually get through to Hayden, 

Just maybe