𝖆𝖈𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖈𝖚𝖕𝖘 ✦ jaesahi

chapter 42

sorry i couldn't update yesterday lol

song of the chapter: worst by always never

Asahi got up from his seat with a sigh and walked up to his wardrobe. He stuffed some clothes he found without trying to look too hard into a bag. Not even bothering about folding them. He huffed out a breath and stopped to figure out what he was doing. His heart still felt heavy. But so did everything else. It felt like he was sinking in the memory. Jaehyuk was still circling his mind nonstop.

He went back to packing some things. Pacing around the room to check if he wanted anything else with him. The room was still as dark as ever. Not that it bothered him. It just got old. Faint street lights from outside made some balance with the darkness. But it wasn't enough. His mood was still at its lowest and the first thing he wanted to do was get out.

Silver on the cigarette box shined against the faint light as he was walking, reminding him to take it. He snatched the box off the table and the lighter with no hesitance at all. Not even trying to fight the urge anymore. He gave in.

He walked out the door and into the hallways. Hallways were brightly lit with light. Maybe too much light. Asahi's head was throbbing with pain, it made him grimace as he walked. He figured his head would start hurting soon. He was crying for an hour, it was bound to happen.

It was so quiet, his footsteps felt prominent in his ears. The way the soles of his shoes pressed against the short brittle carpet. He felt it all. He wanted to go numb. His expression remained blank with millions of emotions behind it. Just like always. It protected him.

And of course, he made the mistake of dropping that blank mask in front of Jaehyuk. And he got hurt. He felt stupid. So gullible. But he was done and tired with feeling like an idiot. So he just wanted to run away from it all.

His car was parked near the dorm building. He sat in the driver's seat and started up the car. The car engine turned on making the car lightly vibrate. He pressed his foot on the gas.

Driving through the city wasn't as glamorous. Being this upset annoyed him. Whenever he looked back at the backseat or the front seat his heart would leap. Having so much emotion towards the situation wasn't so new to him. It happened before. More than once. That's what pissed him off. He fell for it again.

He walked into the very empty house, looking around for someone. It wasn't as lively as it was when he was there before. It wasn't lively to say the least. Just had some people there. That obviously didn't want to be there.