ill survive if I have you || buddie fanfic

I have ...

bucks pov

"I have cancer" I stutter my mind can barley think about this 

"yes I'm so sorry Evan" the doctor says leaning his arms on the desk before continuing to talk 

"you have leukaemia, the way its looking I think chemotherapy is the best way to go" he says looking at me but all I wanted to do was get out of this room. he started talking about dates but I wasn't really listening  

"yes Monday 12pm ill be there" I said before standing up and rushing out the room I didn't feel myself running down the hall until the cold air from the outside hit my chest I got to my car and sat in the drivers seat and before I knew it the tears where rolling down my eyes as my hands banged the steering wheel

"I'm going to die" I cried out 

"and no one cares" .....

eddies pov

I sit outside the hospital in the back of the ambulance with hen 

"hey is that buck" hen says pointing to a figure running towards his car I just shrug and ignore her comment. me and buck haven't been speaking since the lawsuit I just don't know if I can forgive him. 

"I know we are not talking to him but should we go over" she said pointing as he sits in his car I was about to say no when I saw him brake down 

"buck" I said jumping to my feet all those feelings I had for him rushing back

"go to him Eddie" hen say and in that moment I wasn't mad or angry at buck anymore I just wanted to be with him. I run over to his car and tap on the window my heart jumped a little as he didn't see me and continued to bang his wheel 

"I'm going to die" he muttered which makes me take a little step back

"and no one cares" he crys I swung the door open and pulled him into my arms knocking us both to the ground and cuddled him into me 

"its ok buck I'm here now" I whispered stroking his hair maybe he was suicidal and was here to get anti depressants or maybe he didn't mean he was going to die die, I just need to know why he said it and that he was ok

"I thought you hated me" he said looking up with his big blue eyes

"never I was just mad buck but I'm still your best friend I still have your back" I said taking him more into my arms. after a few minutes he got up and got in his car I told him I would come round later to properly talk things out and he told me he would explain while he was sad then. as I watched buck drive away I couldn't help but wonder why he was sad. 

"did I miss Evan" a doctor says walking over to me as I headed back over to where hen was watching by the ambulance 

"yeah sorry want me to pass a message on" I smiled 

"just remind him that its normal to feel down after getting this type of news. especially someone his age" the doctor smiled I just nod not to sure what new the doctor was on about but knowing buck would tell me later

"oh and you guys really be there for him any type of cancer is hard but leukaemia is the hardest he's going to need you" the doctor said before walking away I was frozen watching him leave 

"buck has leukaemia" I repeat to myself in shock I walk over to hen trying to process my thoughts 

"Eddie whats wrong" she says jumping up seeing a tear falling from my cheek

"buck has leukaemia" I say in shock

"what" she shouts standing up 

"don't tell chim till I talk to buck about it the doctor told me and hen not a word about what we saw with buck" I said being snapped out my thoughts 

"hey guys ill drive ok" chim says with a massive smile hopping in the front hen nodding at me to let me know she won't say anything.