The Nerd Project (Re- writing)

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N/ " Drive my heart into the night , you can drop the keys off in the morning. "

|Teddy's POV|

"Teddy , open the door." Matt spoke , having a trace if depression laced in his voice. "Please."

I turn on the water and splash my face with it. I lean on the door and cry as he try to get me to come out.

"I know your hurt and want to be alone but you shouldn't be alone , not when I'm here. Please , open the door." He says

He's right. I hate when Matt's right. I get off the door and open it. The first thing he does is pull me into his arms. In his embrace I feel sane , safe. I feel like his arms are made out of steal but Teddy bears at the same time.

Cause you know , Teddy bears are soft and fluffy. Unlike me.

"Thank you." He says but I'm not really sure why he's thanking me.

"Why are y--"

"You know. You know everything and yet ..." He says , cutting me off "and yet you act like you never knew."

"I , uh - I don't know um what your talking a- about." I stumbled on my words , he heard me. Great.

"Ted , you can't love me. You can't be in love with me." He mumbles but I heard it. He made me promise I wouldn't leave him but the way he's sounding it's should have been the other way around.

"But I do , and I am." I confessed " I love your goofy smile and when you stuff food in your mouth. I love your ass. I love when your mad at me but your the first to say sorry." He's staring at me and I can just see the reject in his eyes but I continue "I love that you wanted to kiss my scars that I made myself when you first net me. I love when you tease me and --"

"Stop ,"

But I don't , " I love you. I've loved you from the jump start but just didn't know. You saved me from him when you first came to my house and I didn't know it then but this spark was made. You added fireworks to that spark and I just feel this burning inside of me that only happens when you call or when your around me. When you hold me."

As on cue he let's me go and leave me standing by myself. I'm confused by his actions but don't say anything.

"You should know that I ," he pauses and looks me in the eye " I don't love you."

"You w--"

"I won't lie , I kinda care about you but I don't love you." Matt shrugs and looks away from my face. "Your just a bet."

"Kinda , huh?"

"Yeah."

"Okay."

I walk upstairs to his room and look for my bag. When I find it I grab it and walk inside his bathroom.

I don't believe that he don't love me , not one bit. And if I'm wrong then I'll look so stupid for this but oh well.

Matt slowly walks in the bathroom with a confused look.

I take out my black blade and smile down at it "Hurting my feelings after what just happened wasn't smart Matty." I sobbed

"Okay , put it down. Don't be stupid Teddy."

I laugh and cry at the same time " It's already done."

I take it and force on my skin. I feel the breaking and ripping of my pale skin as I smirk from the feeling I've missed so much. As I'm about to make another Matt takes it from my fingers and throw it in the sink.

"Teddy .... This is too much blood. You know I don't like blood."

I start to feel dizzy and weak. I see two Matt's , not sure which one is the real one. I fall onto the ground and realize that I did was indeed stupid "I think - I think I cut too deep." I managed to whisper out before I was sucked into a pool of darkness.

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Teddy ... Why? Just why?
*Throws potato*

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