My Random Rambles

Has this happened to anyone? qwq

Me: Hey um, brain.. thing... sorry for kinda trying to get rid of u. Actually, I should really give u a name, I just call you brain, or thing.

Thing: I mean it's probably best u get rid of me

Me: I dunno, I just, I made you, I'm literally thretning myself

Thing: Yeap, u made me to releailve anxiety and just someone to talk to when ur bored, but I ended up giving u anxiety

Me: Yeah... I just, I don't know.. you literally threat me saying if I eat like a specific candy my dad will die or something, like what the heck?

Thing: I dunno man, u made me so, you basically script everything I say. You're literally talking to yourself rn, there isn't two ppl in this room, there's one, u.

Me: I know but, the thretning is different, I don't want to think that, I don't want you to say it, it just happens.

Thing: Hey it might not even be me, it could be something else entirely, like a manifestation of ur anxiety. You scrip me, I could be thinking it's me, it may not be, and I wouldn't know, you wouldn't know.

Me: True, I guess. Why are you even being this nice? Usually ur like, 'Idk lol'

Thing: 1. That's like when u ask me something I would have no idea and I'd say something and if u didn't like it you'd be like 'wait really?' and I'd say that. 2. You script me bro -_-

Me: Fair point, so like what are you? A toxic imaginary freind?

Thing: I think I'd insult you if I were.

Me: Probably, hmm, a disorder?

Thing: Yeah no

Me: Uhh, I just don't know if I should get rid of you, or that threatening thing.

Thing: Why?

Me: It's just, if it's real, and if I don't eat that candy and it saves my dad's life then u know, why make u go away.

Thing: But it's causing you stress, and laity it's been telling u to do stuff, like watch a video all the way or something, it can get worse.

Me: I feel like this is really dumb and if I just told someone the logic and their reaction would just make it better, like if I told my sis perhaps.

Thing: But then that's embarrassing

Me: Yeah, and it's a big deal to me, even if it's so stupid

Thing: So it's bad

Me: Yeah, I guess, sooo, any ideas of.. um... getting rid of you?

Thing: ;-; Seriously? And I'm still scripted.

Me: Right

Thing: Hey why are u writing this down?

Me: I dunno, mabye someone will find it entering, or someone with a similar experience can gimmi some tips.

Thing: Oh, good idea. Oo oo! If ur gunnu right it down give me an actual personality?

Me: Nope, but I'll try to work on ur personatlly later

Thing: Fine -_-

Me: Soo, what should I call u?

Thing: Idk, u script me so my answer is what u want

Me: True, I mean I use to think you were my brain, or I thought my brain was you, but you're like, a scripted toxicity imaginary thing, freind, something, idk.

Thing: S.T.I.S has a nice ring to it

Me: So does S.T.I.T

Thing: Ehh, both too long

Me: Wanna just be 'Thing'?

Thing: Sure

Me: Cool, what about the threat thing?

Thing: Idk

Me: Umm, threatening anxiety?

Thing: More like anxiety that threatens you.

Me: Let's just go with threat thing for now.

Thing: Mkay

I literally just talked to myself, what am I doing... ;-;

But pls if u had anything like this happen were u threaten yourself pls help, I haven't touched that chocolate box in weeks. qwq

I also threatened myself after I was done writing everything down and almost didn't post this chapter. ;-;