My poetry

Once you promised

✨TRIGGER WARNINGS!!!✨

•Suicide

•Deaths

•Hospitals

Once you promised me eternity,
Once you told me that you cared,
You promised you would always cherish the memories we shared.

Once you said some words that made me blush,
And one time you held my hand.

I remember..

Once you promised me forever,
A ring, down on one knee.
You promised it would happen..
...no

It was a guarantee.

But now those hopes have gone away with the wind,
The breeze has carried them away.
Funny thing, it really is, I thought your words would stay.

Once, you promised me infinity...I knew that was a lot.
And I knew you'd pull through.
I kissed each wound you ever got,
And you kissed all mine too.

And now, your soul, can rest in peace,
Knowing I still care,
Now you can have your release,
Don't watch me from up in heaven there.

This is where the curtain closes on our memories,
Don't worry though, i'll still have them in the forefront of my mind.

Late at night, when no one can see,
I'll throw those curtains aside,
I'll hug you so tight,
I'll whisper your name.

But you won't whisper mine,
Cause it's all just my thoughts.

It's all in my head.
You aren't here anymore,
You've taken the key, and you've locked the doors,
To your soul,
To your body,
To your very being.
Because you're dead.

I thought we'd grow old together,
In this house we built last year.
You always told me to 'never say never' and I still hold those words dear.

Its so much harder to see the good in the world,
Now the you've left me here.
Because now that i'm thinking,
My world was you,
And now I need you near.

I thought we'd have a kid together,
A fragile little baby.
One we'd make with love,
No matter how great the pressure.

I imagined, it would bring me pleasure to see your smile,
The look of joy on your face,
As we held our baby for the very first time,
As we walked inside our place.

I never thought you'd be dead so soon,
And make my heart sag so deep.
And now the thoughts of your humming is a gentle tune,
That haunts me as I sleep.

And now that you're gone, our passion just seems like such a fever dream,
All I can see as I remember you is your eyes that no longer gleam.

I'll never love anyone nearly the same way I loved you,
Especially when you died knowing there was nothing we could do.

I stood by your bedside as you gasped your last breath,
You told me you feared what would happen after death..

And I told you, I promised i'd join you someday very soon.
And that, my dear, was the entire truth.

Your pulse faded away,
And you began to rest in peace,
Knowing i'd be there soon, with you.

A promise is a promise,
So I will keep mine,
Just how you kept yours throughout your entire life.

Shortly, my dear, I will join you. I'll see your lovely face,
And feel your gentle touch.
I'll fall into you with grace,
And we'll have smiles full of love.

Tonight is the night. I bought a noose.
And don't you worry I won't fail if the rope may be too loose.
For I have a knife,
Or-I could just jump off my roof.

Whatever it might take,
For me to be with you.
That, without hate, and with your smiles of grace in my mind,
Is what I will do.