My Life With OCD

OCD Subtype: Real Event

So this one I don't understand that fully and I'm not 100% sure I have it. But let's read an article on it.

"OCD normally takes feared scenarios that could take place in the future, then torments you with impending doom in order to get you to carry out compulsions to (allegedly) save the day. However, not all OCD is future-oriented. "Real event OCD" takes something that actually happened in your past and twists it into an all-or-nothing game about how awful or harmful it was in OCD's classic winner-takes-all fashion. In the end, Real Event OCD is just OCD rearing it's usual ugly head, just with a different type of trigger. What can make the trigger so powerful is that these real life events are often ambiguous in nature. An ideal scenario for OCD to exploit."

So my example is... I said my grandma was ok, that she was doing good whenever someone asked, when she wasn't doing good and then she got worse and died. So it's my fault... she died...
I keep trying to convince myself it's not my fault, but I... just can't wrap my head around it? Like kill tell myself "she was getting bad anyways. My words don't make a difference. They did not kill her." But then my OCD comes up and is like "NOPE YOU KILLED HER".

This subtype of OCD I don't understand the best, or know really how to explain so this'll be a short chapter.

Let's see, what else is a real event OCD...

I can't of any other than that one of my grandma... that's the most recent so that's all I can think of right now. Sorry. Guess this really will be a short chapter, sorry about that.