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𝚍𝗈 𝚢𝗈𝗎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝗈𝚏 𝚖𝚎

tw: mentions of suicide notes

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𝚒 𝚠𝖺𝚜 𝚑𝗈𝚙𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚛𝗈𝚔𝚎𝚗. 

I don't know anymore bokuto

i know these are my suicide notes but i don't know how i'm supposed to feel anymore

will you miss me

will you ever think about me

what if we had a chance after all

you honestly confuse me at times

but then again

him

he makes me feel normal at times

he showed me what its like to feel wanted

i 

don't 

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.

know anymore.

i thought you would be my main concern 

i thought you would be the one i cared about

the one i wanted to make sure to always be happy even. . . if we were just friends

i always thought that maybe you were the one for me

but now

i feel unsure

you were the one i loved right?

you were the one i wanted? 

you were the one who would make me happy?

you. . . were the one for me?

but you never loved me.

you never wanted me.

do you even think of me?

maybe i was wrong. 

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. . .𝚍𝗈 𝚢𝗈𝗎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝗈𝚏 𝚖𝚎. . .

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. . .𝚍𝗈 𝚢𝗈𝗎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝗈𝗎 𝚌𝖺𝚗 𝚕𝗈𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚎. . .