A random book in the world (by Whitewolf49)

Why I love Crona so much (especially right now)

So, um, I'm just gonna talk about stuff.

Not just goofy stuff like usual. Like, actual legit stuff. So, um, prepare for feels and stuff, I guess.

Also, I'm probably gonna talk about a TON of Soul Eater stuff. I know I already talk constantly about Crona or Soul Eater in general to a bunch of you because I'm such a fangirl, but still, um, spoilers I guess. If you don't know much or anything about the Soul Eater anime or manga, either go look it up and watch/read it or just ignore this thing. Trust me, I'm probably gonna spill A LOT of information on you guys about this and it's probably for the best you know a thing or two about Crona if nothing else before you go much farther.

Okay?

Okay.

So, um, Crona. Precious non-binary bbybean in the anime, tragic psychopath in the manga. I'm basically obsessed with them. They're that kind of character that you just want to hug so bad. Either because you want to comfort them, or because they're just that adorable a person. And honestly, Crona is just the sweetest... whenever they're not trying to become Kishin of course. 😓

But, um... I got other reasons for loving Crona so much.

See, um... I know I haven't really written much on here in a while, or at least not published much besides a few bits of art or some random bull about this or that, and I haven't exactly drawn much lately either.

Life's an a**.

I'm 18 now, near the end of my high school years as of writing this, and, um... everyone's kinda expecting me to just... grow up, I guess. Go to college or something, learn to drive so I can get a dang license, get a scholarship, get a job, etc etc etc.

Been a real creativity killer.

Been a real time consumer too.

And, um, it doesn't really help that I was kinda sheltered growing up. You know, my parents didn't tell me too much about how the world works outside of life at home and all. I've kinda had to figure all that out myself, and I'm sort of indecisive and not the most independent person in the world.

And, um, you know, my mom isn't exactly around to help for sure now. Sucks, I know.

Doesn't help I'm only confident in my artistic skills... which I consider mediocre at best and which my grandpa doesn't seem to have much faith in.

Again... sucks to be me right now.

And so close to the end of the school year too. Lord knows I need some motivation, but everyone is giving me so much pressure it's hard not to escape into my fantasies like I've always done. But nowadays... I can't really afford to do that too much now.

Growing up scares me right now...

So, um, what's Crona- or Soul Etaer in general for that matter- got to do with this screwed up life of mine right now?

Well, look at what Soul Eater emphasizes throughout the anime and manga:

Fear.

And look at the lessons it tries to teach:

How to handle fear. How to acknowledge and *hopefully* conquer it. Eventually.

The characters constantly run into fear, madness, and apparent hopelessness. And time and again, they manage to find ways to at least cope with that fear, if not ouright control or rid it completely.

Fear of losing. Fear of dying. Fear of the unknown. Fear of being weak. Fear of not keeping order. Fear of not being enough. Fear of interacting with people...