Through the dark

Part 22

Nikki: One more thing before you go in Tom. About the whole y liking Harry thing. I just assumed that
y/n likes Harry because she was always talking about a guy she liked. She said it was a guy she's seeing everyday and it would make things awkward between them if he didn't like her back. I thought it was Harry because they are best friends and were always hanging out together. She never said who she liked I got the feeling it was Harry. That's all.

Tom: *Does that mean she was talking about me? Does she love me and not Harry?*

Your POV
You slowly wake up and see Haz and Tom walk into your room. You look at Tom and feel like you can't breath.

Haz: Hey little sis. How are you feeling?

You swallow and take a deep breath.

Y/n: I'm feeling alright I guess.

Tom stands there without tears in his eyes. It hurts him ru see him like that. He feels guilty for what happened.

Tom: C-can we talk?

He turns to Haz.

Tom: Alone. Please?

Haz leaves and you wach him walking out.

Y/n: What do you want to talk about?

You look at your hands.

Y/n: You made you yourself very clear earlier.

You start to tear up and Tom comes up to your bed. He wants to take your hand but you pull it away.

Y/n: You don't have to act like you care about me just because you feel sorry for me. Just leave me alone like you always do.

Tom: I don't act like I care! I really do care about you. I'm sorry about the things I said to you. I know you didn't use me!

Y/n: Then why did you say all these things? Do you know how it feels when the person you love the most thinks you use them and doesn't trust you? I thought you loved me. God I'm so stupid! You knew how hard it is for me to trust people. I let you in and I trusted you. Just tell me why? Why did you do that?

Tom: It was because my mom told me that you liked Harry. She said that you always talked about how much you liked Harry. I thought that you used me but it's not your fault if you love Harry. But I never used you and I really do love you!

Y/n: I never liked Harry in any other way then as Amy best friend! I was talking about you but I didn't want your mom to know so I didn't tell her who I was talking about.

Tom: What? Really? How could I mess up so bad I'm so sorry y/n I love you and I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore. But please let us be friends again..

You smile at him under tears.

Y/n: I really wish I could stay mad at you idiot. But I can't because I love you. And I really don't want to be friends with you! That's like the worse idea ever! Of course I forgive you!

Tom comes close to you and takes your hand. You don't pull away this time. He's still crying and kisses your hand.

Tom: So do you want to be my girlfriend again?

Y/n: Yes! Yes I do!

Tom still looks really sad. You get a bit worried.

Y/n: What's wrong?

Tom: This is all my fault! You could've died because of me. I hate myself for that!

You sit up and mow to the other side of the bed you move the blanket and Signal him to lay next to you.

Y/n: Come here.

He lays next to you still with tears in his eyes. You put one hand on his chin. You move his head so he looks at you. He looks you in the eyes. You lean towards him and kiss him.

Y/n: It wasn't you fault!

Tom: Yes it was!

Y/nod Stop it babe! It's not your fault it's nobody's! Ok?

Tom smirks at you and nods. Then Haz and the rest of the Holland's come in. They all look really worried at you.

Harry: Hey how are you feeling?

Y/n: Much better!

You smile at Tom and he takes your hand.

Nikki: So I see you guys talked. Does that mean you are together now?

Tom: Yes we are!

You have a huge smile on your face and get a warm feeling in your stomach. Tom looks at you and smiles.

Nikki turns to you.

Nikki: Y/n I'm really sorry! I always thought you were talking about Harry. I assumed because you always hung out together.

Y/n: Don't worry. It wasn't your fault.

You turn to Tom.

Y/n: It was nobody's fault!

Paddy: So y/n when are you coming home?

Y/n: The doctor said I have to stay over night. The doctor said I could leave tomorrow if I'm feeling alright.

You all talk for a while until it's getting late everyone except Tom left. Tom gets up as well and looks at you. You hold his hand and look at him. You don't want hin to leave. You hate hospitals. It reminds you of the time you were sick and alone.

Tom: Do you want me to stay here?

Y/n: I do! But you don't have to.

Tom: I know but I want to. 
Tom smirks and lays back next to you and gives you a kiss on your forehead.

Y/n: thank you for staying here with me.

Tom: Of course darling! I know you don't like hospitals. It works about perfectly fine because I don't like sleeping without you! I would've slept here anyway. Even if you didn't ask and even if you didn't want me to. You're not gonna get rid ob me again.

You smile and cuddle up to him.

Y/n: I love you! I'm glad we talked about what happened.

Tom: Im glad we talked too. I feel like an idiot for yelling at you and saying all these mean things.

Y/n: like I already said it wasn't your fault! And I already forgave you so you should forgive yourself too!

He kisses you.

Tom: You're right baby!

Y/n: Of course I'm right!

Tom: I love you. Good night darling.

Y/n: I Love you too Tommy!

You kiss him again.

Y/n m: Good night.

He cuddles up to you from behind. You feel save in Toms arm. You feel Toms breath on your neck and get goosebumps. You close your eyes and fall asleep