Fine Line

27

Tanner.

We lay my mother to rest, it's been so hard on my dad and me. I'm so glad Chase has been here to help with everything, and her father Aaron. My father gets along with him a lot, they are best buds now. My shoulder still hurts from the bullet wound, my arm is  wrapped up.

Sitting on the edge of my childhood bed, this bed became my favorite thing in the world after being able to have sex with Chase. I remain shirtless as she helps me put my white dress up shirt on. "Thank you, for everything."

"Don't ever thank me for being here for you, I'll always come running," leaning down she places a soft kiss on my lips.

"Out of all the guys thank you for tutoring me," I am trying to hold it together "I think she knew, she knew with you here she could go."

Her eyes became glossy, her hands slowly rub her belly. "I think she knew once this baby started to grow she knew, I have nothing to do with this."

"Chase, you don't see it all my happiness is you I will give up my career if you didn't won't to stay in Atlanta," shaking my head slowly buttoning my shirt.

"Tanner, focus on your mother today it's about her not about us it's about your father, and you the focus is on you two not me," she kisses my lips softly once again "baby anytime you want to go I will understand."

shaking my head, my dad appears in the doorway. "It's time, son."

Chase takes my hand rubbing her thumb against my knuckles. I have been okay, but not fully okay. I want to drink I really do I want to down a bottle of whiskey. I want to get high as a kite so I won't have to feel, but I can't do that too Chase. She and our baby deserve better.

The funeral was a nightmare! I wanted to scream! I wanted the boys to take me to the bar. I couldn't stand this anymore. Walking up to her casket as my dad said his last goodbye. My body leaned over the casket, crying. Dad gripped my shoulder, as my eyes shift to her beautiful face.

"I won't be a failure mama, I'm gonna make you proud I will be the best damn dad to my child ever. I'm going to do this for you, I swear mama."

Straighten up, my dad pulls me into his arms crying. "I can't be here dad right now, please don't be upset."

"I understand son, go don't worry." he kisses my head

Heading down the aisle, stopping at Chase putting my hand out for her to take it. Chase followed me out, into our car. Staying quite, she knows she reads me so well. I see the guys coming out as well, they know me as well.

Back at the house....

the guys had bought three six packs. I have had four beers. I shouldn't drink when I have to take the pain medicine. Oh fucking well, it will be fine Chase will take care of me. She sits across from me, chatting it up with Davis.

"So like the baby looks like a vegetable?" Davis gives a confused look.

"Yeah, the baby is small heartbeat is strong." She softly smiles

"But like, it's just growing tiny hands and a whole ass head inside of your belly fucking insane." Davis sips on his beer "So like do you feel anything can it hear me?"

"Stop calling the baby an it, it's a baby not an object," laughing she flips her hair off her shoulder "I just get morning sickness a lot which is normal, the baby is starting to put pressure on my bladder."

I love hearing her talk about our child, the boys seem to be happy. They actually are excited to be uncles.

"Davis leave the poor girl alone." Max laughs "she having a baby growing inside of her, and I'm sure my niece or nephew can't stand your voice right now."