The Smirking Jerk (Blake's POV)

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Another day of Lexi coming over, another day of me trying to act like it was normal and okay and like it wasn't that big of a deal.

Like it wasn't all I wanted.

I played Ok Go's album, Of the Blue Colour of the Sky while waiting for her. I grabbed a pile of books from my library, trying to rearrange them in a more orderly manner. Josh had been railing my ears about it.

I skipped a song. While You Were Asleep started to play. I grabbed another pile of book.

I turned around.

Lexi was waiting by the door.

We smiled at each other.

"You missed me Pumpkin?" I greeted her, setting the books back down.

I got an eyeroll before her answer. "Yes, I missed you so much Blake, I can't go on without you for more than ten minutes."

I felt warmth in my chest all over even though she was just joking around. I wanted to hug her. I wanted to tell her that I dreamt for so long for those words to be true.

I wanted to tell her how I felt.

But not today. Not yet at least.

Not when my feelings were genuine and hers were none existent.

"See how easy it was to admit Pumpkin," I teased her, though every fabric in my being longed for her to have been honest telling me this.

"So? What are we working on first?" she asked.

"You could read my paper, so we'll be done with that and then we can finish the play and work on math after," I suggested.

"Alright," she agreed and followed me to the computer while I opened the right file.

"Enjoy!" I laughed, and left her to do the tedious work or editing me, going back to my library.

"Josh convinced you to be more careful with your books?" she asked with a little smile.

I liked this, when it was the both of us together, doing little things, like it was natural. 

"Yeah, he threatened to bring Miss Puss in if I didn't and I do not enjoy cat's hair all over my things," I stated.

Lexi laughed a little, and shook her head again, before focusing her attention back on the file.

Would I ever stop feeling giddy over any interaction with Lexi that didn't end up in insults?

Because it felt lie I never would.

I kept looking back at her while she read my paper. I wondered what she was thinking. Did she think I was less of an idiot now that she saw I could write a coherent paper?

Unfortunately, Lexi started making faces at one point and I was worried.

I frowned, unsure what could be wrong with it. "What? Is it that bad?" I asked.

"No, the exact contrary actually," Oh. That was good, right? "Blake? Did you lie? You know with the whole I-need-your-help-at-school thing?"

Yes and no, but yes, but no...

"Why would you ask that?" I asked, not sure how to answer her question without admitting to any lie.

"Because, you kick ass at writing, and I don't think you have any problem with reading either, and now History is all good, and you wouldn't have needed me for that anyway," Lexi trailed.