Dear future me,
I had a weird dream about Lola again. I thought it was real. It actually felt real.
I was sleeping in that dream, beside me was my little sister and on the other side was him. He woke up early and stood beside me watching me while I was asleep. Slowly, he reached for my hand underneath my blanket. My hand was curled into a fist, but he covered both with his. He didn't do anything other than holding my hand as he watched me sleep.
The next scene was we were in a school of some sorts. He was there before I arrived. It would seem like he was waiting for me outside sitting in a bench. I could vividly remember he was wearing a blue polo shirt. He smiled at me as he approached. I was looking over the crowd and saw my friends Diane and Manil. I think they told me that Lola was somehow waiting for me.
Then we went inside a room filled with armchairs. He sat in front of me. But I couldn't understand why we looked as if we were a couple. Then my cousin, Ate Thrina came and then I couldn't remember what happened anymore.
I guess in my subconscious I was wishing that he'll hold my hand. I guess I was wishing that he would wait for me. But of course, I don't think he is waiting in reality.
I still got a month an a half until his reply deadline is over. I hope that whatever happens, wether I received a reply or not, I will be able to accept the consequences of sending him those letters. Not receiving a reply would mean that I should give up.
Love,
Present-self
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Inside Her Head S1
Non-FictionThe best way to keep a diary, is by making it public. Because secrets are best hidden on the most unexpected places... Or rather, pages. 😉 "You'll never hear my thoughts. You can only read them." -Krizia PS: Check out S2 if you enjoyed reading. 😊
