Life is Wife, Wife is Knife

XLVI

LISA POV

Jungkook looking at me with those worried eyes, he asked me immediately as I stepped near him. I told him to go home as if I'm not having difficulties inside. But ofcourse he's my bestfriend he knew me, he push me to tell him the truth but I just told him we're just having a misunderstanding but in the end, he wasn't convinced at all to be honest but before he walked off Jennie's property, he told me to call him in instant if needed.

I proceed inside, wanting to feel the coldness of water down my throat. I was so exhausted.

I was thinking of distancing myself and my son to Jennie for the meantime, she's been so.. unpredictable lately and she might caused a serious trauma to Luke, I don't want that to happen.

Despite of her being so impetuous mostly when something triggered her, I don't want my son to hate her, she's still the mother of our son.

In the middle of thinking on how to get away from Jennie without anymore conflict, an arm reach down my waist embracing me from behind. A forehead touched the back of my head, sighing deeply

"I'm sorry.." she whispered in my hair, tightening the hug
"I really am sorry wife. I just freaked out and m-my jealousy ate me. I'm sorry please forgive me" she apologize sincerely but it's not enough. I couldn't understand her anymore and the thought of giving space between us would help our relationship to learn from the mistake

She turned me around not pulling out, I met her crying eyes solemnly staring at mine. It's still hurt watching her  in that sorrow, but she's getting out of hand and it's not normal for between us family. I love her still but I needed to rest assured that my son's future has a complete family, I need my son to be safe, I need myself to be safe when we're around her. We don't need her aggressiveness, we want her time and affection

"Wife.." she wiped her own tears as I remain frozen on her arms
"I know it was unforgivable, I hurt our son I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry.." she sniffed "I promise this won't happen again, I-"

"Your promises won't work anymore.. you've been breaking it nearly breaking our trust in you" I cutted her

She nodded and the drop of tears stroke her reddening fluffy cheeks. My favorite cheeks of hers. "I know, I'm sorry forgive me, I love you Lalisa I love our son, believe me I was just caught up in my strong jealousy I lose myself I'm sorry.." she blabbed "I'll make it up to you please I'm sorry.."

She's apologizing wholeheartedly but why it seems that I'm not convinced at all. I could feel that we still need a time to watch ourselves individually. She will apologized and I wanted to see how far she can control herself if I told her what's in my mind

"We need space.." I finally say

She must've taken a back, widening her eyes to me. She shake her head taking me in her tight hug by surprise, I could feel her body trembling with her head shaking vigorously
"Don't leave me... I'll die Lalisa" she cried. The untouchable and daring woman has completely out of sight, the woman infront of me is so weak, so powerless

"We needed this, a time to fix ourselves.  Jennie we would never leave you, I needed you to rethink everything... bring my sweetest Jennie back" I whispered hugging her back

"I can't if you leave me.. please I promise I'll change. You can talk to my secretary, I have changed my schedule, please Lalisa we don't need to be apart"

"Jennie-"

"I said no!" she shouted pulling out.

It only took a bolt of flash and she's back  to zero.

She was apologizing yet she wanted to have all the authority in this relationship.

How am I supposed to fix our falling marriage when she's acting like a walking god at the top of the world. It's impossible to win an argument with her when she knew she gets nothing in return. That's not how love works... That's not how I image the happy family with her.. she keeps being a profoundly immoral and we'll reach our both limit and god knows what will happen next