Make it on my own

I didnt know

Noah's Pov
I sat in The car and waited for mum, she opens the door sat down and sighed
MB- Noah what the hell was that
N- I don't know what everyone is flipping out at me for, all I asked was where Bella was!
MB- NOAH STOP IT!
PB- Noah u think u should just listen
N- NO DAD I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG
G- FOR FUCK SAKE NOAH BELLA IS DEAD!
Everyone went quiet my face dropped and a tear went down my cheek
N- What?!

2 years ago
I'm sorry miss but your daughter has cancer and we don't know how long she has
H- oh umm thank you doc may we please see her now
My heart sank this was the worst news ever my baby sister has cancer, we all walk down the hallway to see my sister with tubes up her and machines to help her breathe I start to cry at the sight of her why take her my 3 year old sister why not me
C- Dixie I'm scared
D- don't be scared
I pull Charli into a hug as she cries into my chest
Doc- you guys can all gave a minute with her
Me and Charli step outside to let Mum and Dad have some time with Bella, about half an hour passes and it's finally my turn
C- Dix you can go in now
I walk down the hallway and slowly open the silver door
D- Hey B
B- hi Dix
D- how you feeling B
B- not good
D- oh baby it's going to be ok
B- no it's not I'm going to die aren't I
D- ummm I-I baby don't think like that please
B- I knew it, I'm scared Dixie I'm really scared
D- B please don't be scared just know that I love you and if you do go you will be somewhere that will keep you safe you will be with the angels and they will take such good care of you until I get to see you again
B- please don't forget me
D- I could never forget you B I love you so much
B- I love you more I always will
D- that's not possible now get some sleep baby
I stroke her forehead until she falls asleep, then I cry harder then j have ever cried before she is my baby she is to young
Beep Beep Beep
I jump up scared what's happening?! The beeping gets louder and doctors and nurses rush in
Doc- I'm gonna have to get you to leave the room
D- but my sister!
Doc- Miss please
I get ushered out and mum, dad and Charli run up to me, what's happening I don't know! The machine started beeping and then everyone ran in
H- oh no girls take a seat please we can't do anything now
D- no! I already lost Noah I can't lose Bella to
C- mum is Bella going to die
Charli says through sobs
H- I don't know baby
We sit in the waiting room until a nurse comes out, we all stand up
Doc- I'm sorry but it traveled and her body shut down there was nothing we could do
D- what! Your kidding she is fine go back and help her she is just sick
Doc- I'm sorry miss
D- NO YOUR THE STUPID DOCTOR GO FIX MY SISTER
I break down in tears my mum comes and picks me up in a hug
H- calm down baby
D- no everyone keeps leaving me first Noah and now Bella

Back to reality
Noah's Pov
N- what! S-s-she's dead?!
G- yeah
N- how did I not know this?!
G- because you were to busy of in New York not keeping in contact with any of your family
N- you could have called
G-BECAUSE YOU THINK DIXIE WANTED US TO CALL YOU!, SHE HAD LOST THE TWO PEOPLE SHE CARED ABOUT MOST IN THE RANGE OF A MONTH SHE WAS HURTING THE MOST AND BY CALLING YOU THAT WOULD HAVE MADE THINGS 10 TIMES WORSE MAYBE IF YOU HAD ACTUALLY CHECKED UP IN YOUR FAMILY AND NOT JUST WORRIED ABOUT YOURSELF THINGS MAY HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT BUT NO YOU CHOSE TO BE SELFISH AND UNLIKE YOU I CARE ABOUT DIXIE'S FEELINGS
PB- Gabriella come on that's enough
G- NO! NOAH DOESNT CARE ABOUT ANYONE OTHER THEN HIMSELF SO IM LEAVING
Gabs gets out of the car and starts walking back to the D'Amilio's
N- GABS WAIT PLEASE
She just flips me of and keeps walking
I sigh and sit back in my seat as my mum looks at me disappointed
MB- you really need to learn when to stop talking
N- what about Gabs!
MB- no Gabs was right you were selfish how do you think us as your parents were feeling when you didn't answer our texts or calls and then only way we could know how you were was from paparazzi videos
N- I'm sorry ok
MB- sorry doesn't cut it, Gabriella doesn't trust you, Good luck getting advice from Addison, Charli is all confused now because of you, Briar only knows of you as the guy that broke her sister and you will need all the luck in the world to get Dixie back and even I am starting to lose hope in you getting her back.

Back at the D'Amilio house
Ding dong
D- hello
G- hey can I come in
D- Gabriella?
G- yeah don't worry Noah isn't with me can I please come in though
D- yeah of course go upstairs into the living room, Charli and Addison are in there with Briar
G- ok thank you, also how's Briar doing
D- ok just a bit confused as to who Bella is she doesn't really understand that's why we wanted to wait till she was a bit older to give her full details, I mean she knew she had a sister called Bella and she has seen photos before just now she knows that Bella's with the angels
G- ok well we can talk later about things if you want but I'm gonna go up with the girls
D- ok I'll probably be up soon I'll bring out the mattress and we can all sleep in the living room
G- sounds good I'll tell the girls