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"King "

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how long have i been here?— hours.. days.. maybe weeks?
i don't know

time felt like it didn't even exist at this point,
the pain i felt throughout my mind and body didn't exist anymore
not even the reality of me being used to cover up for puffy abandoning you didn't exist—
the only thing that did exist was you
in my heart and in my head

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꧁ ☦︎ ꧂ King

a bright yellow light suddenly fills my vision
my arms covering my eyes
confusion taking over as i removed my arms to see a beautiful lavender field with a big baby blue watered lake
the sky was purple.. there were multi colored fireflies everywhere i turned

it was a beautiful sight,
my curious mind and feet wandered around
admiring the lavender flowers that sprouted from the ground
giving myself a gentle smile, until i realized

"i'm not with techno and his crew anymore?.. "
i thought to myself as i walked in the direction of the baby blue sparkling water
"did i finally just.. die?"

my thoughts interrupted by another bright light coming from the middle of the lake
once again i shield my eyes as the light grew bigger and bigger— nearly blinding me

upon uncovering them
i could see a blob of white and yellow— just hovering over the water of the lake
" clay" a soft voice echoes around me

the voice was enchanting.. almost enough to put me under a spell— and it did
my feet walk forward, the grass underneath my steps turned to some sand, then sand turning to water

but i didn't sink into the lake— no
i was walking on top of the water, with every step i took i could see the ripples beneath my feet

my hand extended out,
the bright blob of white quickly disappeared
revealing itself or rather— revealing herself
"mom?.."

her arms extend out and embrace me into a loving hug
but i didn't return her embrace
" hello my duckling" she says with a soft tone

i didn't answer her for what felt like minutes— but was only a few seconds
i gently nudge her off of me

"i'm not the one you should be calling that too "
she said nothing

" i know.."

" why would you abandon your child and replace him with a lowlife like me?!—
and don't even think about lying! "

at first she looks down at the water we were standing on
then she looks up at me and takes my hands

" i had to.. he was a target"

" target? for what?"

" hear me out duck— i mean clay..
when my little george was born, i could tell he was special—
because of his eyes"
she paused
looking at my hands and hers, as she took a deep breath in and a deep breath out