| 𝘶𝘯𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 |
tackling an enemy is never easy.
especially when the enemy is faceless and nameless,
threatening to spill every secret the girls have ever had.
and as you know, secrets never stay hidden in rosewood.
[JASON DILAURENTIS x O...
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NEW YORK, NEW YORK: BELLA'S FRESHMAN YEAR AT NYU
The last year has been freeing. Living with Jason in the city I've always longed be in to is a euphoric feeling.
Since I've been at NYU, I've decided to double major in Cyber Security and Psychology with aspirations to go to law school afterwards. After everything I've been through, I want to be in the justice system and help people. I've been wronged so many times by these people. I know if I'm in this career field, I can fix what's happened to me and do my part. If there's anything I've learned it's if you want something done right, you just have to do it yourself.
Jason and I are doing fine. I love him, I truly do, but living with him in a small apartment has shown me a lot. He can be a slob. He leaves his clothes anywhere but the laundry basket, he leaves his dirty dishes everywhere for me to pick up and clean. On top of that, I'm a full time student and I work a job on campus. It's exhausting.
I still keep in touch with all the girls. Hanna lives in the city so we usually go to dinner once a week. When Aria isn't in Georgia, she's either at home or visiting us. I talk to her everyday. I talk to Spencer frequently. Not as much as I'd like to but we're both busy. Emily and I check in with each other, too. She's living it up in California. Jason and I hear from Alison a lot. It's hard with her sometimes because she tries to fill us in on Charlotte.
I still get flashbacks and panic attacks after everything. Jason has been really supportive about it. He's there for me when I need it. I don't know where I'd be without him.
I've been going to therapy to work through everything I've been through. Sometimes, I feel like it will never get better. It will follow me forever wherever I go.
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NEW YORK, NEW YORK: BELLA'S SOPHOMORE YEAR AT NYU
How could we be so careless?
Jason and I are always careful. Always. Whenever we had sex, we are careful. He always wear a condom. Now is not the time for kids.
I don't know what happened. I don't know if it was defective or if it was ripped or if it was expired. Whatever it is, I am fucking screwed.
I missed my period. It's a week late. I've had a regular period since I was 13. This isn't normal.
I got the tests and called Aria freaking out. She always joked about me having a kid, but not now.
When the tests came back positive, worry set in. I don't know how this is going to go. There's no way I can keep it. I'm in school and we live in a tiny apartment. I have my whole life ahead of me. I'm 20 years old. I can't support a baby.
Jason came home from work and I was sitting on the bed. It was clear I was crying.
