KS4 - Yours ✔

Chapter 36

Miles's POV

I can't understand him. I feel like I have no right to intervene with his life. I am not used to this kind of Cade. I feel like he is just holding his anger towards me. I am not sure when will he explode and I am not prepared for that.

Actually, Cade is calmer than how I expected him to be.

"Baby, I learned cooking this."
He just nodded at me.
I put food on his plate. "Try this."

"Yup, good." He smiled at me. I mean he faked a smile.

I just kept quiet and continue eating. I don't want to annoy him.

He is so cold, very far from the Cade that I know.

He picked up his phone when it vibrated on the center table.
I didn't hear what they are talking about.
I don't want to ask.
He didn't even initiate to tell me.
Before, he would explain even if I am not asking. But now, he didn't bother.

"Baby, I called mom last night. I am thinking if we can visit the village."

"Next time." He answered. At least, he didn't say no.

"Okay."

"Luke called earlier about the party in his house. Do you want to come?"
He is different. Maybe time faded his love for me. Why ask? He would always bring me to any place he would go before.

"No, just enjoy. I am done eating. I'll go shower first."

I am trying my best to act how I was before that incident. He is near me but I feel he is still far away. I just took a bath and cried inside. I need to let it out so I can be fine later when I face him again.

When I stepped out of the restroom, I saw Cade sitting on the bed and staring at me.
"Are you going to have dinner here?"

"No. It's Luke's birthday."
He'll let me eat alone.

"Tell him happy birthday."

This is my fault why we are in this situation.
When he sees me every time I walked out of the shower before, he would cuddle me and make out with me. Today, he just stares at me like I am a piece of log walking in front of him. I am not intentionally seducing him, it just saddens me that Cade now is different from the Cade I fell in love with. I want his warmth again. I want him to make love with me again. Will I look desperate if I ask him that? What if he refuse?

I slept my sadness away. I saw him left the house again.

I don't know why I am sad though. I really can't understand myself. This guilt is killing me. I can't even forgive myself so I am not expecting Cade to do the same too. I just miss him still.

The week passed by slowly. He always goes home late. I would pretend to sleep when he gets home.

It was Saturday when he left the house again. I don't want this anymore. We need to talk about this.

It was midnight when I heard Cade's car outside. I fixed myself up. This is so not me but I need to give it a shot. It's been a week since we reunited but he has done nothing more than a peck on my lips. I am not that pervert. Actually, it is fine to me being not that touchy at all.  But we are talking about Cade here. In the past, he would have sex with me every opportunity he can get. He changed.

He opened the room. "Why are you still awake?" Cade asked me. He walked straight to the restroom. I followed him there.

"Can we talk?" I asked him.

"Let me wash up first.  I stink."
Yes, he smells cigarettes again.

"No, right now." I held his cheeks.