The Don

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^kiara's outfit

"You're pretty sexy for a pregnant woman." Kiana smirked at me.

"Please don't." I sighed. I wish I could forget the fact that I'm pregnant but everyday I'm reminded because of the morning sickness and monthly checkups with the doctor. I'm now four months pregnant and for the most part only the immediate family knows that I'm with child. I an actually really happy about that because the last thing I need is for all of Italy to start treating me like a pregnant queen. I don't need all that attention so I'm enjoying it while it last which according to Dario is until we find out the baby'd gender.

For the most part things have been okay between us. Nothing had really changed honestly. He is still always out and about in his mafia business and finds the time to have sex with me. We barely talk and I can't even complain. It brings me peace of mind knowing that he isn't forcing any conversations on me.

Camilla on the other hand, I have been seeing alot of. Unfortunately she and her wife are still not on the best of terms and she decided to stay with Dario and I for a while. It's a way to provide her space in her relationship while being close to her sister in law and her unborn nephew as she put it. She is so determined that I'm going to have a boy. In fact they all are, so for the sake of it I'm hoping for a girl. It's hard to picture Dario as a family man or even a father. I can't believe the big bad mafia boss was so desperate to have me all to himself that he kidnapped me, married me and then practically forced me into starting a family.

I still don't understand him. I don't understand how he thinks. I wish I knew why he is the way that he is heartless and cold but according to everyone it just him, this has always been Dario which is quite disappointing. I think I would've rather heard that he went through something traumatic as a child and accepted that faster than this simply being who he is. 

The only thing Dario continues to stress on is the fact that he is in charge and I belong to him. Literally, he hasn't opened up to me one bit—not that I'm desperate or anything but at least for me to have a better idea of who it is I'm about to have a child for.  He is just so cold and distant. He shows no kind of affection of any of that. The only thing Dario shows me is power. His power to control me and dictate to me what to do and his power to own me and remind me every chance he gets that no matter what may happen I will always belong to him. Overall the only conclusion I've made within the last few months in addition to what I already knew about him is that he is possessive. I might've hinted it before but I confirmed it recently.

Dario doesn't want me interacting with the male gender at all unless it's his brothers or guards. It's ridiculous considering that the mansion is 99% man and he is hardly ever here. I don't know who else he expects me to try to force a conversation out of.