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Nervous is an understatement to describe how I feel at the moment

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Nervous is an understatement to describe how I feel at the moment. I can't stop fiddling with my cufflinks or adjusting my already messed up tie. I planned to ask Eliana to do it for me when she finished getting dressed but of course, nerves pushed me to attempt it.

It wasn't a good attempt.

The prospect of going up there on a stage in front of millions of people, both in person and virtually, is enough to make me want to throw up.

Sure, I play in front of the same amount of people, but that's different. I'm not overly aware of what I say or do — I just play.

But it doesn't matter if I go up first or last, there'll be people there, watching, waiting, judging...

And if I didn't already have enough to worry about, my girlfriend has been uncharacteristically quiet for the past week. Even on the flight to Nashville, I expected she would be brimming with excitement how she has been whenever I brought up the draft just weeks ago.

Instead, Ana stayed to herself watching Netflix or just listening to music.

And then us staying in the same hotel room, I'd expect her to do what she usually does and practically try to crawl into my skin, but she fell asleep on the other side of the bed, not even holding my arm.

It's concerning.

I inspect myself in the mirror, despite the odd looking tie and nod in appreciation. Both my mom and Ana had a part in picking out the suit I was going to wear and I couldn't be more thankful.

My head bows for a moment just as I hear the bathroom door open

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My head bows for a moment just as I hear the bathroom door open. I peek through the mirror to see Eliana exit, her hair curled and dress hugging her curves. Her heels are by the door for when we leave.

She's absolutely gorgeous.

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