my maze runner (Gally x Reader, Newtmas)

goodbye Winston

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Winston flipped over into his hands and knees and I backed up a little. "Winston, you ok?" I asked and walked up to him again. Just as I said it, he coughed up black blood. I walked back and stood next to Thomas. "It's growing." Winston said and got onto his back before lifting up his shirt to travel his stomach all scratched up, bloody, and it looked almost rotten. We all watched Winston breathe heavily for a while before he said, "I'm not going to make it." My eyes started watering. I don't know how, but apparently, I still have tears left to cry.

Even though I didn't know Winston for very long, or very well, it still hurt when he reached up for my hand and pleaded, "Please." I know what he feels like. Even if I wanted to die because Gally died, I am still suicidal, and that doesn't change. I choked back a sob and put my hand over my mouth before I walked up to Winston and bent down. I put the gun in his hand slowly and rested it in his chest. " Antonia?" Thomas questioned.

"I know how it feels. If you want to do it. Do it. But just know that we will all be missing you every day. I'll probably regret this, but if you want to. Do it. I still wish I can, but I can't. I don't have the guts. If you want to, goodbye Winston." I told Winston instead of answering Thomas. Winston looked up at me and brought up his hand to wipe away a tear I didn't know I had shed. "I can tell we would have been close. Thank you." He choked out. I knew he wanted to do it now, so I stood up and walked past everyone, ignoring the stares they gave me from my speech.

"Get out of here." I heard Winston say as I grabbed my bag. I heard the other boys say bye as I kept walking. I started crying but held back sobs so no one would tell. I walked until I heard the gunshot. I stopped with everyone also stopping, and actually let out a sob. I knew I would regret it. It's all my fault he died. I told myself it's what he wanted and kept walking. When we stopped to go to bed that night, no one talked for a long time. I sat down away from everyone, but Minho came and sat next to me. "I thought we were supposed to be immune." Frypan said. "Not all of us. I guess." I heard Teresa say. "If Winston can get infected, we should assume so could the rest of us." Newt added. "I'd never thought I'd say it," Frypan said and I looked over to see tears running down his face. "I miss the glade." He finished. I started crying, but silently. I remember the unsureness in Gally's eyes when we left the glade. I knew he wanted to stay but wouldn't leave me. It's my fault he died to. Everything's my fault. Once I thought everyone had fallen asleep, I finally let out a sob and buried my head in my knees. I let out a couple more, and then I felt someone's arms wrap around me. I looked up once they pulled away, and saw Minho and Frypan. Minho had hugged me, but Frypan was sitting next to him, concerned.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to wake you guys." I choked out. "You didn't wake us. We never went to sleep." Frypan said. "About what you said earlier, you don't need to feel that way. It's not your fault. None of this is." Minho told me. "I can't help it." I replied before letting out another sob, this time louder. I quickly covered my hand over my mouth but kept crying. "Please don't feel like that." Frypan said. "We'll do anything." Minho added. I looked at them both gratefully. "I really appreciate it, but there's nothing you can do." I told them before laying on my back and facing away from them so they couldn't tell me anything else. After a while of me laying there silently crying, I heard bodies shuffling and soon heard Frypan'a snore before Minho came by me. He laid down beside me and pulled me into his chest. I cried into his chest for a while but eventually stopped. I looked up and Minho had already gone to sleep, so I just got closer to him and fell asleep.