No Love

August

"He gone mama"

"Who baby? What you talking bout aug?"

"My son ma he gone" I wipe away the tear that fall from my eyes

"Wha- why what happened"

"I honestly don't know ma I couldn't even ask no questions I just walked out" i sigh

"August im sorry that had to happen to Yall... where's Michelle she ok" I shake my head as if she can see me

"Idk ma"

"What you mean you don't know?" I can hea ha Copin an attitude

"Idk ma I walked out"

"August Anthony Alsina if you don't get yo narrow behind in that room and comfort that girl I swear you Jesus I'll be on the next flight there just to smack yo ass. I know you hurt and going through it but put your self in her shoes she's hurting just as much and probably blaming her self for what happened and for you to just walk out on her i raised you better then that"

I hang up wit out anotha word cuz allat just don't bullshit just as much as MiMi hurtin im hurtin too dats my son too.. I put my head in my hands and just think on this shit like how could the pregnancy be so perfect and the bam he gone. I don't want to question God but right about now im startin too I look at my rolex to see i been out hea bout two hours. I pick up my phone tryna think of somebody I could vent to but hell ever since me and MiMi start fuckin around it's like cut everybody else off.. cuz fo da past year she been done one I talked to about my problems I got the niggas at da trap but you can't show emotion around des niggas and the only nigga I thought I could trust trippin wit me ova a bitch that's married to anotha nigga. I start to hea heels click causin my head to shoot up my eyes meet with Mimi's doctor teetee whateva she is

"So we went ahead and induced the labor she's about 5cm dilated she's having strong contractions she's scared and asking about you and if you gonna come so I told her I'd come ask" as much as I really don't wanna go in thea she shouldn't have to go through this alone so I'll suck it up fo ha and my son. I stand up and start to follow ha back to this new room

"August you know if you have questions about this you can ask me" she says

"Aight so why? Man what happened he was just kickin movin around and all of a sudden he go-" I start to get choked up on my tears man wtf I really didn't wanna cry she pats my back as we continue to walk

"Honestly august we don't know what exactly caused it it could be a lot of things that happened we won't know until he comes out"

So much fo answerin my questions dis is bullshit I swea... once I walked in the room I saw MiMi Layin on ha side I heard ha snifflin I grabbed ha hand and kissed ha forehead

"We gone be aight mama" I lie straight through my teeth cuz honestly Idk how we gone get pass this shit I just know either it will make our relationship stronga or it might break us idk man

"Au- August i Shoulda knew something was wrong it was like he was sending me a sign and I just let my baby die! And I'm so sorry it's all my fault I killed him August me! I killed the only person in this world that would love me unconditionally I killed my pride and joy and I was just wanna go aug kill me kill me for taking your son away from you just take me outta my misery I don't wanna be here no more" she starts to try and pull out the ivs I grab ha arms wit out much effort and hold up above ha head

"Look at me" she clutches ha eyes shut while shakin ha head back and forth

"Kimberley Look at me now" I call ha by ha first name so she know I ain't playin

"I know how you feelin but we just gotta stay strong fo him I don't Eva wanna hea you talkin like dat aight I luh you den and I luh you now no matta what we always gone be gold aight" I hold ha body closer as she cries into my chest I drop a few tears.. man shit idk how we gone get through this