Worlds Apart

Messy Days

Saturday, Sunday

Noahs POV

She told me she loved me. She let me kiss her, she kissed me. She finally let me make her one in every way I could and then she kissed nick.

I wasn't mad that she kissed Nick I was mad that she made me believe that my years of silently loving her, she finally loved me back. If she wanted to stay with nick she could but I wish she talked to me. I wished she trusted me. I wished she really loved me like I loved her.

I lost hope from met parents, most of my friends, Addi, and now I was losing hope on the one person that I needed to be on good terms with. Everyone wonders why I didn't  tell dixie I liked her as soon as I knew and its because when I told her there was always a ringing in my head that told me things could collapsed.

When it was a secret thing could happen and I fucked that up, because I'm scared of being alone, and Im scared of being hurt even though that's all I have ever felt.

Dixies POV

After Noah sped off Addi made everyone get the hell out and I sat there for hours on the couch crying my everything out while my sisters tried to comfort me. lets say it didn't work because even if it was 100% my fault I was so mad at myself that I hurt for Noah I didn't give a fuck about how I felt but Noahs devastated face that replayed it was more tears.

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The next morning I woke up at 7:50 in the morning but I didn't have the motivation to get up. There was nothing to look forward too.  There was nothing to be here for and it was all my fault. I planned to take full responsibility and to do that I wouldn't involve people in my shit.

When it was 8 I heard a knock at my bedroom door "hey sis you awake" Charli said quietly just in case I wasn't. "no she isn't sorry" then I heard Addis voice say "I know you are you just like my instagram post" she giggled after.

"come in" I said before Addi and char came in. They came to my side and hugged me and char said "do you want to talk about it"

"no char there is nothing to fucking talk about I messed up" I said in a harsh tone but she knew it wasn't directed to her and more myself.

char and Addi both got into the bed with me causing me to be squished Addi hugged me and said "Dixie come on don't cry" I didn't even realize that tears were spewing out of my eyes like a new born baby.

"I lost the one thing. The one thing that showed me unconditional love" Addi nodded knowing it was true "Well if I know my brother he will come around because he loves you" I shook me head no.

"no you heard that he said that he kept away from me all theses years to keep me safe he isn't coming back Addi" I turned to face my pillow and let go of my held back tears.

Char began to rub my back and Addi said "dixie please I know everything isn't perfect especially between us sisters but at least get up. Take a shower, do your hair, put on a fancy outfit and we will wait wait here for you because even if everything isn't okay we will always be here"

I rolled back over because a nice shower sounds really good. My phone ringed and I reached for it to find Nicks number present.

"why the hell id he texting me" I yelled and shoved my phone into my sisters faces to show them and then I opened his text.

Hey I know you don't want to talk to me but can I please get once chance to explain myself maybe over coffee

Addi read it over my shoulder and nodded "I think you should go it may be the closure you need"