Worlds Apart

Moving and shopping

A week Later

Dixie POV:

This past week had been a nightmare. My nightmare that I put myself in. I was suffocating in my dreams. Everything around me was falling apart, and to me it was my fault only.

I didn't tell anyone of my mental state instead I put on a smile. A smile that covered the nightmares, and the pain I wanted to feel because I caused everyone pain and hurt in some way.

I wasn't okay and it was because I couldn't trust and turns out I was the only un-loyal one.

Today was the day that Addi was moving out and to celebrate Me, Char, Tatum, Addi, and Noah we were all going to go do something of Addis choice but I didn't know. I was happy to see Noah but it would make me drown a bit more.

But the smile, and fake laugh would cover it up and I would be Happy Dixie.

I woke up sweaty and breathing heavy like I had woken up like for the past week. I went and striped and got into the semi hot shower. I washed my hair because I felt like wearing my natural waves today.

when I got put I wrapped the towel around me and went to the sink to brush my teeth and then slowly walked to my closet and chose a simply but perfect outfit for the occasion.

It was a white long sleeved crop along with matching white sweatpants and white air forces. Its not like me to wear all white because I make a mess but I didn't wasn't to find an outfit.

I went and made sure my hair was good and put a little makeup to cover my bags.

I waked downstairs to see Charli and Addi already ready. Addi said with a bubbly and excited voice "good morning Dix" I turned fake dixie on and said "good morning adds, today is the day so what's the plan"

"well Noah" she paused and my eyes retorted to my cereal and coffee. "Noah and Tatum are coming over to help move boxes to the Truck and then we will drive to their house and unload." my smile dropped a little knowing  that I was going to have to spend the whole day with the people I needed to hide from the most.

Because family see right through you so Addi and char. Tatum also can see right through me. Then Noah is like a part of me we share feelings.

"after that we are going Christmas shopping together" she got happy own the word together. I wanted to make her feel like this was okay because I knew as soon as she knew that I was uncomfortable she would call everything off.

I have already controlled so many peoples life I couldn't do it anymore.

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Tatum and Noah had been here for almost a hour and we were almost done putting things in the truck. It was surprisingly normal I felt like this was a regular friend group even though it was far from regular and farther from a big friend group.

We all had secrets, we all had feeling, we all had connections and we hall had pain. See far from regular.

Music was playing from the speaker and everyone was talking and laughing.  Every time I tried to feel okay I would remember it was an act. I wanted myself to believe that so I wasn't happy again because I don't deserve it. They deserve it I don't anymore because I took everyones happiness for so long and now they have it back and mine is gone.

and to me that was okay.

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It had been that way for hours and now we were at the entrance of the mall and we were walking in. We decided to go to 2 stores together and then separate to get the separate Christmas gifts. Then we would all meet up again and leave me and char would drop Addi, Noah, and Tatum off and we would go to our house.

My mom and dad are important in the little town due to their jobs and sadly money, so they were hosting the Christmas eve party. It was going to be at a very big  venue. They would invite other important people and they're kids so basically it would be a town party. Noah and Tatum had  no connection to the important people so my parents invited them.

I was excited that my parents were getting to the comfortable part but this would mean a lot of thongs that I dint want to happen. Like my parents also inviting  the two for a  family Christmas Eve dinner and for them to spend the night so they could pen presents with us.

Meaning I would have to spend 2 full days and a night with Tatum and Noah. YAY. Sarcasm Noted

Addi was hosting a secret Santa and we already picked the people out. My parents were also playing. I got Charli which I was excited about because it easy to pick something.

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I ha gotten hime after a long day and night. I got Charli 2 things one secret Santa and a regular gift. Her Secret Santa was a gift card to her Favorite Dunkin and then a bunch one different branded stuff animal because char was a kid at heart. her regular gift was a New customized air forces and I also got her a Louis Vuitton purse.

I got Addi a new cup for her coffee the had her name on it, because Addi loves stuff that was made for her and her specifically. I got her a a lot of clothes for her new room a long with pictures and decor for her room.

I got Tatum a necklace with her name on it similar to the one I got Addi for her birthday. I got her new canvases and paint and a new printer because I heard her talking about how she needed a new one but keeps forgetting.

I got my mom a simple but elegant mug with her favorite quotes and I got her knew books because my mom likes relaxing with a good book. I never understood this because I could never but oh well.

My mom had the idea of getting all together my dad a new grill so that's what we did.

And Noahs present was his favorite cologne, I customized football and soccer ball, and my favorite gift i have ever given was a bunch of letters and times to open the letters. Some when he is sad, or mad, feeling alive. Some of them were in detail like open after you do this, or before you do this.

Because if I wasn't in his life to tell him these things my letters would do it for me.

A/N

I hated this chapter but oh well I think the next will be better