Our Heart (Ryomen Sukuna x reader)

Casual Act ~ Ch56

¤ (Y/n)'s Point Of View ¤

Staying in a steamy bathroom longer than I needed to was not the plan for today. At first I just wanted to have a quick shower to feel clean after yesterday's events. But as soon as I got inside, that plan was instantly thrown out of the window once I felt Satoru's curiousity literally overwhelm me. He felt anxiety and suspicion. Then the moment I closed the bathroom door, I could feel his emotions highten.

After I waited a bit with my ear against the door, I realised that they were both sat in silence for one reason. Satoru was waiting for me to turn on the shower. So I turned on the shower and got back to my position against the door, trying to listen to what they were about to say.

When Satoru began asking Yuuji about what happened yesterday, I couldn't help but be nervous as I could tell he was slowly connecting some dots. He was not as naiive as Yuuji was and could easily read most of my emotions. Now I wonder if those were skills he aquired from the old Toru.

After a while, I realised that listening to this conversation would do me no favors. I already knew what had happened yesterday and I should just assume Yuuji would tell him all that he knew, which luckily wasn't too much that could tell my secrets. After I came to that conclusion, I actually began having the long awaited shower that I had been needing. Though it wasn't as relaxing as I thought it would be but lets not mention that bit yet.

In addition it was hard to concentrate on cleaning my hair when I could feel Satoru's every emotion. At some point in time, he let out a feeling of enlightenment and realisation but mostly shock. This was the point in time I realised that he found out that him and Toru were one and the same. Everything he was feeling was so overwhelming that I wanted to cry in frustration. But I didn't allow myself to make any noise, I didn't want to interrupt his moment. I wanted to give him abit longer to take it all in but eventually I gave out. Shutting off the shower, I began getting changed and purposely making noise so that Satoru would know I was coming out and could compose himself.

By the time I was fully changed, his overwhelming emotions had started to calm down. But that wasn't because he was calming down. It was because he was leaving the room. Me on the other hand, I didn't leave the bathroom untill I knew he was gone. I couldn't help but feel bad, knowing tht if I hadn't entered his life that he wouldn't be having such an identity crisis right now. I knew he was suspicious of me and even more suspicious since the day I let it something slip about the dead man in the forest.

Confusion was the only thing he could feel towards me recently. From me possibly knowing the fact that he was Toru's reincarnation to the conversation I'm sure he overheard me having on the balcony to the two birds. I still wasn't completely sure how I understood animals but knowing that it rooted from my cursed technique satisfied me enough to stop thinking about it. Though I couldn't help but wonder what it looked like from an outer perspective.

This was all hard on Satoru. I knew it would be. Which is why I wouldn't bring up the matter unless he did. I don't want to make him even more uncomfortable. I've came to the conclusion that I would still try my best to treat him as Satoru, not Toru. Because even though they were the same spirit, they were not the same person.

For now, I needed to give Satoru some personal space while in the meantime I continue to try and set up a meeting with him.

But at this very moment, as I walked out of my bathroom into the bedroom, my mimd was on other matters. I was menstruating. After finding this out in the shower, It was impossible to relax knowing that I had no idea on how to deal with this predicament.