A New beginning

Chapter 17

Justus-

It's been three days since Messiah and his baby mamma drama, which means it has also been three days since Siah and I made it official between us. Nobody knows except us obviously. When I said I was his nigga Mayla and the bitch took it as a joke.

Delilah keeps asking for her mom and each time she does Messiah tells her she's busy but the more that's said the more sad Delilah gets.

"Why you not at work?" I asked as I walked into Messiah's house. "Keem giving me the week off. Why you not at work?"

"He told me to make sure you're alright." That was half true. I fucking starved myself for this moment. I looked around the empty living room. "Where Delilah?"

"I still took her to daycare today." I nodded my head walking to his room. I sat on his bed as he tossed me the remote. "Put on what ever you wanna watch." He laid beside me going on his phone.

"You're not supposed to be on your phone, you have company." I said turning to face him.

"You do it to me every time I go to your house."

"Okay? But don't do it to me."

He locked his phone putting it face down. I mugged him. "What you putting his face down for?" He huffed in annoyance flipping it the other way.

He better not be cheating already.

"It's just a habit, J."

"Mhm."

A random movie was put on. We watched it for twenty three minutes, and I know because I kept looking at the clock, before I started to sigh. Siah ignored it.

Sigh.

Ignored.

Sigh.

Ignored.

Over dramatic sigh.

"What, J?" Messiah pauses the movie. Turning his attention on me.

"I want to fuck."

"What?"

"Like fuck, sex, intercourse? Damn I don't know, whatever you call it, I want to do it."

He shook his head no turning back to the tv. "We just started dating, you're not ready."

"I am though. I starved the whole day for this. I even turned down the food Devonte offered me, I'm prepared." I whined.

He got me begging and shit.

"C'mon, Messiah."

He turned from me to the TV multiple times before putting the remote down. "Don't try to change your mind, J."

"I'm a thug I can take it." I said already starting to take off my clothes. Messiah pushed me on the bed lightly as he hovered over me. He leaned down kissing me, taking full control.

He unbuttoned my pants pulling them down throwing them somewhere in the room before he took off his own, including his shirt.

Messiah kissed down my neck making me tilt my head to give him more access. He lightly sucked on my skin making me let out a low moan.

He pulled my boxers down before pulling his own down. He paused from kissing me going to get something from his drawer. He picked up a bottle and condom making my heart start to beat abnormally fast.

He walked back over to me taking his place back between my legs.

"You sure, baby?" He asked one more time. I nodded my head yes despite my heart about to pound out of my chest.

"Words, J."

"Yes, Siah I'm sure."

He opened the bottle pouring this slimy shit on his ring and middle finger. He brought his hands down to my ass pushing his fingers in slowly making me tense up.

He placed the hand he wasn't using on my chest tracing circles around my nipples. He slowly pulled his fingers out before pushing them back in making me squirm uncomfortably.

"You okay?"

"Don't worry about me, I''m a thug." This shit sting.

He moved his fingers a little faster curling them up a little bit. I let out a soft moan as he continued. The pleasure stopped when he added a third finger.

"Siah," I grabbed his hand making him stop. If I can't take fucking fingers I can't take dick. After he prepared me for a little longer I gave him the green light.

He pulled his fingers out and positioned his dick at my entrance after he put the condom on. He covered his own dick with the lube. He looked down at me as I nodded my head. He barley pushed the head in before I hissed in pain.

Hell no.

Fuck no.

"Calm down, Justus."

The fuck he mean calm down? This shit hurt.

"Okay keep going." He starting to try to push himself in more before he stopped again. "You got to calm down baby, you're tense." I let out heavy breaths.

"If you keep tensing it'll hurt." He was still drawing patterns on my chest.

I got my breathing back to normal. I looked down noticing he wasn't even half way in yet. I'm bout to pass out.

"Okay, okay, you can go." He placed his hands on my hips pushing the rest of his dick in as I painfully bit down on my arm. Fuck. I'm about to die. I dug my nails into his skin as he sucked in a breath at the action.

"You okay?"

"No,"

"You want me to pull out?"

"Nah, you're good."

We stayed still in that position for a while until I told him he could move. He slowly pulled out before pushing back in. I squeezed my eyes shut at the pain as he went at a slow steady pace.

"Okay you can speed up a bit." I got used to the pace and pain wasn't as bad so I let him go a bit faster. I still didn't feel much pleasure yet.

Maybe I'm not so gay after all.

I moaned arching my back off of the bed as Messiah hit a certain spot. I opened my eyes seeing him smirking at me. Dumbass. Messiah Repeatedly hit my prostate as he went faster.

I pleased my hand on his abdomen. "Siah, slow down."

"What happen to being a thug?" He took my hand placing it over my head as he leaned down placing his head at the crook of my neck sucking on my skin. Making me moan louder. This gave him the advantage to go faster.

My free hand gripped his shoulder.

"Siah, I can't-," my eyes rolled to the back of my head when he leaned up a bit wrapping his hand around my dick. He moved his hand at the same pace of his thrust.

"Yes you can."

How he gon' tell me what I can do?

I gripped his shoulder a little tighter. "I'm finna cum Siah." His thrust got sloppier as he let out a few groans himself letting me know he was also getting close. I squeezed my eyes shut as I let out my release. Messiah kept going chasing his, letting out a groan.

"Fuck," he mumbled biting down on his lower lip. He looked down at me with dazed eyes.

When he finally got his he plopped down on top of me. "Your moans are pretty." He was out of breath. I lazily traced circles on his bare back. Deciding to ignore his comment for right now.

"You got to get Delilah in a bit, let me up real quick." He pulled out of me getting and stretching out his back. He put out his hand for me to grab. I pushed his had away.

"I got this." I carefully stood up. When I was fully up a sharp pain shot up to my ass making me fall on the bed only to make me yelp louder.

"Fuck! Messiah, look what you did." He chuckled to himself disposing the condom. "You said you were a thug." He shrugged his shoulders.