¤ (Y/n)'s Point Of View ¤
It's been roughly 10 minutes since my encounter with Mahito. 10 minutes since he had given me an address detailing where to find him and 15 minutes since he had agreed to train me in return for any useful information. The stitched spirit hadn't told me his plan yet and I knew it was because he did not trust me yet. But he said that he would reveal parts of his agenda in due time. So I guess, I would just have to wait.
I knew what I was doing was wrong. I knew that I was betraying those who I believed to be worthy of the title 'Friends'. But for the first time in a long time, I wanted to be independant. This feeling hadn't struck me since the first time I escaped the palace...the day I met Sukuna. And since then, I always relied on him. It was easier that way.
But in this era, nothing is easy. If I wanted to achieve or obtain something, I had to work for it. I could no longer just rely on others to obtain it for me. But this wasn't the only reason I was doing this. I not only wanted for Sukuna to be proud of me...I wanted to be proud of myself. I wanted to achieve something knowing that it was 100% my blood, sweat and tears that made it happen.
And that was why I wouldn't tell Sukuna about this. This was going to stay a secret from him and everyone around me untill it was no longer a secret to keep. I knew that he would surely disapprove. It's not that I didn't trust Sukuna's plan. It's just that I wasn't willing to let my friends get killed in the crossfire while Sukuna was more than willing. Maybe this way was better because I wouldn't be walking into this war blind, I would instead have full control of my cursed technique. While with the old plan, I wouldn't because unfortunately Sukuna was no longer an option to be my teacher.
Was I scared? Of course I was scared. Scared to be found out before anything works out in my favour and scared that Sukuna may not like this new mindset I was basking in. But if this indeed did not work out then at least I tried knowing that this was 100% my descion.
With all these thoughts in mind, I made my way back through the market after successfully obtaining the last two cursed objects that I needed to complete Satoru's exercise. Including the extra 10 minutes I spent searching for the cursed objects which happened to be a mini clock and a photograph, it had been 30 minutes in total since the silver headed jujustu sorcerer had been waiting for me.
After arriving at the checkpoint I left the man at, I easily spotted him sticking out like a sore thumb by his silver hair. Satoru was leaning against the same wall I last saw him at, staring at me with squinted eyes. Now that my eyes were locked on his, I began to feel the heaviness in my heart. It was like a different light was shining down on him making me see him differently now that I was officially betraying him.
I wondered how much it would hurt him...hurt him to know that his phone call with Kiyotaka was going to be used against him by me. As I stood infront of him, I could feel the guilt eating me alive. I just hoped that he couldn't feel it too. I may be doing this for me but that didn't mean I had to feel good about it.
"You took longer than I thought you would." Satoru commented, staring down at me with his arms crossed over his chest. It almost looked like he was accusing me of something, I could tell he was more than suspicious. But at this point, who wasn't suspicious of me?
"I got a bit lost." I lied, looking up at him with a sheepish smile. Scratching the back of my neck while waiting for his reply, I then realised that it wouldn't be long untill Satoru figured out my habits when I lie."Why didn't you call me?" Satoru asked accusingly, brows furrowed in worry.
"I wanted to be more independent." I told him. Only now was it that I realised that this was the first time that I've said something so completely truthful to Satoru.
"Well come on, now that you've found all of the objects we can check on Yuuji and Nanami. Maybe after go over some moves that I taught you yesterday?" Satoru asked, looking at me for reasurance as we began walking to Nanami's neighbourhood.
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Our Heart (Ryomen Sukuna x reader)
FanfictionTwo lovers, one heart... - Completed - Story cover made by @musuxo ♡