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RAQUEL
Medication...
Therapy sessions...
Psychiatric consultations...
And a lot of other things related to Joshua's condition are all I can hear in the hospital as the day goes on. I don't know if it's tiredness or lack of sleep, but it's hard for me to pay attention and understand what they're talking about.
My mother practically dragged me out of the hospital when night fell, arguing that I needed to rest, that I had already spent too much time there. Dani arrived to keep Joshua company in my place, as Joshua's parents would be resting for the night, they were devastated.
After crying on my best friend's shoulder for a while, I say goodbye to Joshua and leave. I arrive at an empty and silent house. I close the door behind me and rest my back on it and play with the keys in my hands, without separating from the door.
This is not how I imagined the first night of the new year; apparently life likes to hit us when we least expect it to see how long we can hold on. I feel like I've been punched in the stomach and left without air even though I'm breathing.
My mind keeps trying to understand, to look for reasons, to point fingers, to blame myself. I still remember my conversation with Joshua before I left:
"I know you want to ask, so just do it," Joshua smiles at me. "It's okay," he says.
I rub my arms, in an attempt to warm up and buy time to choose my words carefully, while Joshua just waits.
"Why? Why did you do it?"
Joshua looks away, sighing.
"You wouldn't understand."
I sit on the hospital bed next to him.
"I will try to understand you."
His gaze falls on me again.
"Give me time, I promise to tell you, now I... can't."
I put my hand on his shoulder, and give him a big smile.
"All right, I'll be patient."
He places his hand over mine, his eyes locked on mine.
"I have missed you so much."
"Me too, Yoshi. I... I'm sorry."
"Shhhhhh," he grabs my cheek gently, forcing me to look at him. "You don't have to apologize, Rochi." His thumb caresses my skin.
"But..."
His thumb moves to hover over my lips.
"No, stop."
The touch of his finger against my lips tickles.
"Okay."
"Now go home and rest," he lowers his hand and approaches me, giving me a kiss on my forehead, then backs down. "Go, I'll be fine with Medusa."
I laugh a little.
"Don't call her like that or you're going to have a very long night."
Joshua shrugs.
"It's worth it, it's the most appropriate nickname I could think of."
Dani comes in, muttering something about the quality of the hospital's coffee, and finds us grinning like idiots. She raises an eyebrow.
"What? Were you talking about me?"
"Nope," we said at the same time.
There I had left them, fighting over nicknames and nonsense as usual.
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