Two Lost Minds ^Bucky Barnes Fanfiction^

Chapter 22- Rehab

"Tony," his head completely shot up after hearing your voice. You hadn't spoken to him in at least 2 weeks. You were still cutting and taking the opioids because you felt it helped with the pain. But you decided it wasn't something you would share with anyone.
"Bri, how have you been?"
"Better, I'm sorry for not talking to you for so long. I was just trying to cope." Tony walked up to you and wrapped his arms around you. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have shut you out."
"Bri it's okay, I understand."
"I'm just so sorry," the only reason you felt bad was because you wanted to stop cutting and taking opioids but you knew you were addicted.
"Have you talked to Bucky at all?"
"No I've been avoiding everyone lately."
"Why don't you try and talk to him, okay?"
"Okay," Tony let's go of you and you make your way to your room. You head straight to your bathroom and lock the door. You grab out the pills and razor. Looking in the mirror at yourself with tear filled eyes.

You slide the razor across your wrist multiple times. Then you grab out some pills and take more than usual. Once your head starts spinning and your thoughts slow down you go and lay down in your bed. Staring at the blank ceiling, watching as the fan slows down. Before you know it your eyes are shut and you end up falling asleep.

Bucky's POV*
"Tony are you sure this is a good idea?"
"Yeah, she's asleep right now so it'll work." You and Tony walked into Bri's room and see her sound asleep in bed. "I'll check her and you check the bathroom." You walk into her bathroom and see an open bottle of opioids on the counter. Along with a bloody razor. You can feel the tears filling in your eyes. It broke your heart seeing Bri like this. Ever since she found out about her parents she hadn't talked to anyone. It had been about 3 weeks now. She hasn't even talked to you and it broke your heart. Seeing her in so much pain. You grab the stuff and go to show Tony.
"I found these," you hand him the stuff.
"Just don't let her have it." Tony's watch starts beeping loudly.
"Tony shut that up before she wakes up."
"Shit, it's a mission. I gotta go, try and see if she'll talk to you later."
"Got it," Tony rushes out the door and you sit in a chair. You just sat there admiring Bri, she looked so peaceful when she slept. But it was obvious that peacefulness wasn't going to be there much longer.

*We're back to Bri's POV :)*
Your eyes shot open, you were covered in sweat. Your thoughts going a thousand miles per hour. Everything seemed to be going so fast you couldn't stop it. You go to your bathroom and start searching for your pills.
"I know they're in here." You say to yourself as you start to panic.
"Looking for these?" Your head turns to see Bucky standing up from out of your chair. The razor and pills in his hand.
"Bucky, I didn't know you were in here."
"I know," he had so much sadness in his eyes. And they were red as if he'd been crying.
"Buck, have you been crying?" Your voice filled with concern.
"Yes, you can't be doing this stuff to me."
"I'm not doing anything, but can I have my stuff back?"
"Bri! You're better than this. Why are you doing this stuff?"
"Because it helps with the pain. You have no clue what I've went through."
"Then let me help you."
"I don't need help, I need you to leave me alone. And to stay out of my business."
"No because you can't be trusted. There's too much going through your head to let you be alone."
"That's not true," at this point you guys were screaming at each other. You hated the tension between you two.
"Oh really it isn't true? Then why do you have these." He grabs your arm and pulls your sleeve up revealing the cuts all the way up your arm. You hadn't paid attention to how much you'd been cutting.
"Stop! Why can't you just mind your own business? Why do my actions matter so much to you?"
"Because I love you. Bri I love you so much. And you might not feel the same, and that's okay. Because people don't feel the same sometimes. But that's how I feel."
"Bucky," you voice broke trying to speak. You couldn't spit out words.
"You can't keep doing this Doll."
"Bucky I'm sorry," you fell to your knees. Head in your hands.
"It's okay, you were hurt and in pain. I'm not mad at you. Just please let me help you."
"Okay, I'm so sorry." Before you could say anything else you felt Bucky's arms around you. Your head pressed against his chest.