Tuesday
Shit. I can't stand up from my stupid bed. I groaned in frustration and put a pillow on my head. Why the hell did I kick it?! I could have slapped somebody instead! "Marceeel!" I yelled and waited. "Marceeeel!" I yelled again and this time I heard his footsteps. "What the hell?" he asked while rubbing his eyes. "It hurts." I said and he sighed. He walked closer and held my leg up. "Ouch!" I said and he rolled his eyes. "You need to stretch it Emma." he said. He left after a while and I sighed. Was that dream real? Do I love Marco that much? My heart started beating harder and I think that's the answer.
"Thanks for helping me." I said when I walked in the kitchen. "I couldn't let you stay there." he said and I put the bottle of water into my bag. "When do you finish today?" he asked and I bit my lip. "Why?" I asked and he looked and me nervously. He licked his lips what made me realize that he's up for something. "Marco would like to talk to you." he said and I chuckled sadly. "He knows that...that you saw that gossip shit." he mumbled and I raised my eyebrows. "Shit?" I asked ironically and he sighed. "Don't make up your mind til he says his peace." Marcel said and I crossed my arms over my chest. "Look, he can't control his actions! He keeps hurting me! What the hell was that supposed to mean?!" I exclaimed. "He loves you Emma. He does! And you love him too!" Marcel yelled and I left. I don't know what to feel now. I love him. But...but can I trust him?
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My lessons lasted til 4 pm! 4 freaking pm! I'm the happiest person alive now when I'm stepping into my flat. I walked in the living room after I had took off my anorak and boots. Marco stood up as soon as he noticed me and I looked around. "Where is Marcel?" I asked and Marco came closer. "He's away. Will be back at around 7 pm." he said and I crossed my arms over my chest. Why does it hurt? I feel like running into his arms now. "Can we talk?" Marco asked and I took a deep breath. Something in my mind tells me to let him speak. "What do you wanna tell me?" I asked and he sighed. "Those 3 girls. They were fans." he said and I pouted while nodding my head. "Cool." I said sarcastic and he came even closer. "I know that I hurt you. I know it. But I want to be with you." he said and I looked down. "It's not that easy to forget everything." I said and he nodded. "I know. But I wanna have the right to call you my Emma again." he said and my heart melted a little.
"Please Em." Marco begged and I looked at him through my teary eyes. "What you've said isn't enough yet." I said coldly and he reached for his phone. "I love you. And...and I miss you so much Em. But I've had you with me all the time." he said and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Look." he said and gave me his phone. I unlocked the screen and smiled. It's the photo of us where he's kissing my cheek. "I wanna prove you how much I love you. But you need to let me show you." he said and I sobbed. "Why did you sleep with the woman?" I asked and he gulped. "Em..." he said and I shook my head. "Just tell me why." I said and he looked down on the floor.
"You went out with Erik and...I was so jealous and...and I knew that maybe I will never get you back. So....I got drunk." he said with pauses and looked at me. "It will never happen again." he said and I nodded while biting my lip. He took of his necklet with 2 pendants and came closer. I didn't take a step back this time. "Read it." he said and pointed on one pendant. My name is written there. Emma. "I love you so much Em. Please." he said and I looked at him. My heart made some kind of a sound. And I swear if my heart could speak, it would say I love you Marco. I nodded my head and he raised his eyebrows. "W-what?" he asked and I bit my lip. "Slowly." I mumbled and he smiled. He took a step closer and rubbed my cheek. "I wanna start at the beginning. Nobody else, just me and you." I said and he chuckled happily. "I'll show you I deserve you." Marco said and I smiled. I need him. And I've realized it at one lesson of mine today. I don't know why, but I was thinking about everything. And I had the dream before. And my heart cracked when I imagined my life without Marco.
"I love you." he said and I smiled. It feels so nice to hear it. "I want you to know that I will never do anything stupid again. I can't be without you." he said and I only nodded. "Can I hug you Em?" he asked and I chuckled. Somehow, I don't care that another woman had her arms around him now. I just wanna know that I'm doing the right thing. "Yes." I mumbled and he smiled. He hugged me and I enjoyed somebody's hug after a long time. I felt his lips on the top of my head and I sobbed. "Hey, this is supposed to be a happy start." he said and pointed on my tears. "I was in pain." I said and he pressed his forehead on mine. "I know. I'm so sorry baby. So sorry." he said and I nodded. "Don't do it ever again." I said thorough tears and he kissed my cheek. "Never ever." he said and hugged me tightly again.
I pulled away and looked up. "I want this to work. I want it so bad." Marco said with love in his voice and I looked down. I can't think about the slut. I won't think about it. "Then make it work." I said and he rubbed my cheek. "I'll never get enough of touching you." he mumbled while looking into my eyes. "I will never let you run away. Not in billion years." he said and I chuckled. "Emma Fornell, you will have to get used to me pretty quickly because I'm not going away from you." he said and I chuckled again. Is this all just a dream? Because if it is so, don't ever wake me up.
"I'm going to bed." Marcel said and stood up from the sofa. "Marco, she's not leaving. You can go to bed too." he teased and walked away. Marco stood up after Marcel had closed the door behind him and hovered above the sofa I was laying on. "I should go." he said and I stood up. He put his hands on my cheeks and pecked my lips. "I love you. Thank you for giving me another chance." he mumbled and I nodded. If I didn't give him the chance, I'd never be happy again. But if he screws up this time, it will be over. For good.
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I lay down and bit my lip. There is somebody who should and deserves to know about all that has happened today. I dialed Erik's number without thinking twice and waited for him to answer. "Yes Em?" he asked and I bit my lip. I let out a shaky breath. How to tell him? "Erik...I need to tell you something." I said unsure. "Tell me then." he said with worried voice. "I know what I feel now." I said. "I love Marco." I said quietly and heard his sad chuckle. "I've known it." he said and I bit my lip. Was it that obvious? And was I the only one not to see it? "Every single thing he did was shaking with you. I didn't put my hopes up. Don't worry." he said. I feel guilty. I was spending lots of time with him. What if I've hurt him by all my actions?
"Em, I'm happy for you. You love him, he loves you. And as long as it's that way, it doesn't matter what I feel." he said and I sighed. I hurt him. Stupid Emma. "I'm sorry." I said. "You have nothing to be sorry for. Be happy with Marco. You...you deserve happiness." he said and hung up. There are 2 feelings inside of my heart. Love and guilt. I feel guilty for hurting Erik. I should have never got so close to him. But I was in pain and needed somebody to rely on. He helped me. And I'm never gonna forget it. But I love Marco. And I hope that we will last forever. It sounds like a novel, I know, but it's that way. I put all my hopes into us. And I know that when we both will try, we will work. We will make it.
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