winter nightmare

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-jay pov-

it was a long ride before the plane landed on geneva, switzerland. just like usual i went to a hotel para mag check in.

every time na mags-snow dito sa switzerland, i always fly and stay here for three days... wishing that until the end i keep my promises to her.

"i already landed dad, nagpapahinga lang po ako sa hotel ngayon"

[that's good, i just check you up. take care] we both waved our goodbyes before i ended the call.

three years ago, i fly to seattle para makasama si dad, inalagaan ko sya doon for one year and i also finished my 4th year of college there. we got closer after i got a chance na magkausap kami ng maayos.

he felt sorry, and i accepted it. because why not? just like her, i know dad chose to be far away with us, for our own good.

i unpacked my stuffs, sumilip ako sa bintana at madilim na sa labas. it was snowing so agad akong nagpalit at kumuha ng mga panlamig, i wore a scarf before going outside.

dumaan ako sa flower shop to order a bouquet of flowers. i rode a bus para makapunta ako ng mabilis sa pupuntahan ko.

"hi po, it's been a while" i put the flowers on the two tombstone infront of me.

"i came by again so we become more closer i think? tita, tito?" naupo ako atsaka nagsimulang alisin 'yung mga snow na nakahara sa mga lapida nila.

"i know you are taking care of her well there, from above. i just hope she's doing well now"

"though it's been three years, tita, tito. i hope makita ko po sya na masaya, maayos, healthy"

"i always came here every winter season, because i promised her na dadalhin ko sya sa inyo, tapos mae-experience din nya ang snow" i chuckled remembering those happy times.

"does it still hurt? a bit" i wiped my tears away. "but thank you po tita, tito for her existence, dahil po iyon sa inyo at.. sorry po kung naiiyak na naman ako sa harap nyo, mauna na po ako-"

"t-toni?" i stopped from standing up when i saw her in a distance, looking at me.

i saw she smiled at me, before walking towards my direction.

she also placed her flowers on her parents' tombstone.

i stood up, "mauna na ako" she did just nodded.

nilagpasan ko lang sya atsaka lumabas sa sementeryo, i started to walk on the streets. naupo ako sa bench na tanaw 'yung mahabang ilog na nagsisimula na din mag yelo. the city lights are so beautiful as well.

it's been fucking three years? ngayon ko lang ulit sya nakita. she looked matured right now, and healthy. she even got more prettier. i smiled with that thought, she was doing fine. that is all matters to me.

"hey" napalingon ako sa pagtawag nya. tatlong taon ko na hindi naririnig ang boses nya, but it was still so familiar to me.

"you are still using that scarf huh" naupo sya sa tabi ko, napatingin din ako sa scarf na suot nya. it is the same scarf she gave to me that time when she got sick because of the rain.