Forgetting The Clown (Hisoka x Reader)

⭐ 19~

"Now, remember the plan" Killua said as he ushered C/N to go. The little boy nods as he started heading towards the mountain. His tiny feet run as his heart beats faster and faster as he neared the gate.

He's excited to see his mother but the thought of getting caught by Illumi won't leave his mind. He has to make sure... he have to... he wants a family... a complete family with his brother. He never thought that he has one and he will make sure that he can stay by his side.

Finally, he arrived at the gate. The old man immediately saw him and call the main house where Illumi answered the call.

"C/N is in front of the gate" As those words left the old man's mouth, Illumi immediately run down to meet him. 

How is he back?

Why is he here?

Is Hisoka with him?

What are they planning?

As those questions swirl in his mind, he arrived at the gate to meet C/N with teary eyes.

"I miss home" As those words left the child's mouth, Illumi couldn't care less about what Hisoka was planning. This child... he took care of this child, he watch him grow up and care for him as if it is his own child. He won't let Hisoka take what's already his! He will make sure to keep them both! He will keep them... Love them more than Hisoka ever will.

Illumi kneel and put the child in his arms, hugging him... whispering sweet words, trying to calm down the crying child... 

His... child...

 He carried the slowly calming child up the mountain. His mother is waiting... she would be overjoyed to see C/N. 

The past days has been hard as Y/N won't stop screaming and throwing hands at him, asking where her child is. Illumi won't answer... he won't because no matter what excuse he gives he knows Y/N won't listen. Her child is missing... and the only thing that's keeping her from leaving is because Illumi said he knows where C/N is. 

Now that C/N is home... she can finally calm down... and he can proceed with his plans.

The dress is already made, his father helped prepare the wedding. Nothing can go wrong... he won't let anyone interfere... even if it is C/N!

As they entered the mansion, he carried C/N to where Y'N is, thinking of ways how to tell her about the wedding.

As Illumi entered the room, a book came flying at him followed by an angry shout. "You little piece of cock!-" Y/N immediately forgot what she was about to say as she realize who Illumi was holding on his arms.

C/N looked at her with teary eyes as he extends his hands towards her. "Momma!!" 

Y/N drop the book in her hands as she extends her own arms to take c/n and hug him tightly to herself and kneeling down as she hug him. Shushing the child as she rock him back and forth, whispering sweet words as she tried to calm herself down.

"Mommy is here..." she said as she sob "I was so worried, don't disappear like that ever again" 

"I won't... I miss you" The child said as he cried in her arms. Hugging her tightly, missing her warm embrace.

"I'll leave you two for now... we'll talk later" Illumi said, keeping his eyes at the two before leaving the room after quietly nodding to himself, as if reassuring his own self that nothing will happen as he leave the two for now. After all,... what can a 6 year old child do?

Y/N only glared from c/n's shoulder as she hug her child even more tightly, as if afraid that the child will disappear again. 

As the doors close, she stood up, still keeping the child in his arms as she get to the bed and lay down.

"Mother... I can't breath. It's ok, I'm here now I won't leave" C/N said as he feels a little suffocated by how tightly he was being embraced.

Y/N slowly let go as she look at him. Eyes gleaming with tears. "I'm sorry, I just missed you too much. Where have you been?"

With those questions, C/N immediately thought that it would be the best time to tell her about Hisoka. Eyes full of determination, he sat up and waited for y/n to do the same before speaking.

"I met someone... no... I met a lot!" c/n started to say.
" Where? and wh- did... did they told you to come with them? Do you know how dangerous it is for a kid to follow a stranger?! Why would you-" Y/N started to say as she started to panic with a hint of anger as she think about what those people could have told or done to her child.

"It's not like that!" c/n said, cutting her off.
"How is it not like that! Do you-"
" They are my father and brother! Momma I finally meet them!" C/n blurted out as he grab his mothers clothe to maker her stop talking. 

Y/n, shocked and panicked about what she just heard, remained sitting and staring at her child... It's impossible... How could he... How would they... How... 

"And what makes you think that... that whoever that-! that person you just met is your father? How are you so-" 

"Because Illumi was there and his reaction told me so! He wants to marry you, right? Momma don't marry uncle Illu... let's leave and go to father, please" C/N said as he started tugging at her clothes. He wants a whole family... he wants his real father and his brother. Although he loves Illumi as his uncle... he could never compare as he longed for the love of a true father. He was happy with Killua, Touji, Gon, and Alluka as his friends...

Y/N stared at him, unable to say anything... everything is too sudden... just how in the world?!

"And what makes you think that your father wants me back?" Y/N said softly as tears started streaming down her eyes... just being reminded of Hisoka... just thinking about him makes her heart ache. 

"Father still loves you very much, Momma! He wants you back! Please... let's go"
Y/N can't hold back any longer as she puts her hand in her mouth, hoping that no sound can escape her quivering lips as she started to cry even harder.

Would it make her a fool for wanting to trust what C/N had said?
Would it make her a fool for hoping?

Then... if that makes her a fool... then she's the foolish in the world... as she want's and hope to trust and love Hisoka again.

Or maybe... she never really did stop loving him...


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A/N
Hello everybody! Advance Merry Christmas to you all! Now here's my advance gift.

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