The Secret Mistress

TSM 20

"Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends."
-John 15:13

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“Colleen's POV”

Naging busy kami ni Adamir sa pag-aayos ng mga gamit sa bago niyang condo, Although ako 'yong nagdedecide siya 'yong gumagawa.  In end pareho kaming pagod na naka upo at sandal sa couch.

"Let's rest for a while then let's take a bath." He said and lay at my lap facing my stomach. I don't mind it and close my eyes. He put my right hand to his head, napamulat ako at tinignan siya. Did he just want me to caress his hair?

"You were such a puppy." I chuckle and caress his hair, sinubs*b niya ang kaniyang mukha sa tiyan ko, halatang pagod na pagod.

"It's tiring even though it's a small place. What's more if we buy new house?"

Napatigil ako saglit, I know na panandalian lang 'to. We don't even talk properly.  I just don't know what's running inside of his mind. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko kaya nagpatuloy ako sa pag suklay ng buhok niya gamit daliri ko.

Am I too much to ask for my happiness? Can I be selfish a second time? No, that's not what should I do now that I am back. The purpose of what am I doing this is to have a serious talk with him. But every time na uumpisahan ko na magtanong, nauuwi sa 'you know that thing'.

"Adamir, I am back not because of you."

"Hmmm."

"Adamir listen, You have a wife--"

"Were not anymore." Blangko bigla ang utak ko, umayos siya ng upo pero nakaharap sa akin habang nilalagay ang hibla ng buhok ko sa likod ng aking tainga, nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya. I'm about to open my mouth but he touch my lips so I was taken a back.

"I prepare everything, all I need is your permission. So please allow me to make you mine. Allow me to kiss you everytime I want, Allow me to spend night with you---"

"Stop saying dirty things, talk properly." I blushed! Pakiramdam ko uminit ang mukha ko sa pinagsasabi niya. Lumambot ang ekspresyon niya. Para siyang maiiyak. I wonder why. He rest his head into my shoulder. I gasp.

"I am affraid, Kapag may nasabi akong mali—you will left me again without saying goodbye infront of me." Ramdam ko ang lungkot sa mga salita niya. Medyo na guilty naman ako.

"You don't need to worry Coleen, I fixed everything. So don't leave me again please..." Teka, ano ba 'yong na 'fixed' ?

"What are you talking about? May asawa ka na hindi ba? Gusto mo ba maging kabet ako ulit? Secret mistress again?"

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin, although hindi naman niya nakikita reaksyon ko. Halos mapalundag ako sa gulat dahil sa pag hawak niya sa dalawa kong balikat at nakatitig siya sa akin habang dumadaloy ang luha sa mga mata niya.

"It's not what you think! We're married just because we should, but we end it for good! You will never be a mistress again! Do you hear me?! I won't let that happen!" He's angry. He's shouting at me. But I'm surprise, his tears are beautiful, his eyes are sparkling. He look handsome!

"Are you listening?!" Niyugy*g niya ako. I touch his cheeks and touch his tears. His eyes widen.

"Colleen..."

"You are handsome..." I mumbled.

Hinawakan niya ang dalawa kong kamay at sinamaan ako ng tingin.