Comprehension

B.Y.A.T

I loved someone once.
Someone brave,
someone kind,
someone broken in ways
that my heart could not
help but love...

A love like that
has consequences,
for someone can only
know you as deeply as they
know themselves.

And when I was done,
when I had gathered all her shards,
when I had put them back together,
like a puzzle,
her hurt reflected inside of me,
mimicking what she was,
before I came to restore her
lost parts.

You're nothing new,
just another face with
the exact same story_
So I am sorry if I seem selfish,
I'm sorry if this seems self righteous,
But I cannot stay for someone
who abandons themselves...

A love like that,
twice in one lifetime would
destroy me...
What would become of me if
i was to sacrifice what little
of me I have preserved for myself?

I need you to love yourself,
not because I told you to,
not because I will leave if you don't.
I need you to love yourself for you,
so you can love someone one day
without your world crumbling once
loves visit has come to an end.

Because you will suffocate me,
and whomever you one day choose
to half love_
What will you have to offer us,
if you are not satisfied with the
joy you bring yourself?

So for now,
whilst we're still young,
I have to let you go,
for me, and for you as well.
You will not do my heart justice!
Not when you are still harming yourself...

It might seem selfish ,I know.
I will not romanticize being someone's crutch,
I will not leave this love with less
then what I started with...
I am trying to make sure that both
our hearts remain unscathed in the end.

Because if our hearts are to be reshaped,
If our perception of who we are is to be
changed,
I want us to leave this love as better
people then we were yesterday.

-Liyah smith