unconditionally//unrelentlessly

-- MARRY ME

don't play dumb
don't lead me on

i've seen
the sparkle in your eyes
die

and

come alive

i know it wasn't me.

it's been seven years
&
you've started wearing
dior

'i ain't no posh daddy's boy'
RINGS through my head like a prayer
dripping shame down the sides of my mind that slip out my eyes late at night

( i know.
i know.
i know the truth. )

'i know i ain't got much,'
and i really would rather die than to remember this cursed memory
that used to hold my soul together

( i don't wish to know the truth
i don't.
i don't i don't i don't )

'but i will love you for eternity and beyond and beyond, light years into the future. i will love you so hard we are made immortal. the story of our love will be engraved by the gods among the satin sky'

and then, it is with choking ignominy, i recall—
how you sank to one knee
and pulled out the tiny gold circlet
that damned me

( fall in love, fall out of love )