| Eleanor |
The past one week had been nothing but a combination of heartache, headache, disbelief and in total denial.
After the emotional rollercoaster that day. . .I hibernated in my humble apartment and refused to come out since one week. So coped up with everything surrounding me, I didn't pick Willow's call. .not even my mother's frantic back to back calls.
I had this huge load on my shoulders, I could feel it in my bones. All I did this week was just lay on bed and stare at the ceiling.
Contemplating what he said.
What I did.
What Dean said. .
The confession—
Closing my eyes, I laid a hand over my stomach. I couldn't think of that word let alone talk it out.
Ryan, my twisted broken Ryan. .
A sob broke out from my mouth and the dead room suddenly had noises. My shoulders shook and I let it all out.
Everything I had been holding inside came tumbling out. And the sobs turned into me calling out his name.
Over and over again.
My heart ached.
I had never felt this empty in my entire existence. A hollow gap had opened up in the middle of my heart. .it was sucking in the life out of me.
One dark thought after another. .
I took the screwdriver and did his brakes. .
Feeling claustrophobic, I sat up. . pushing my hair off my face. My nose burned up and my eyes stung. .
I don't care if I live in hell as long as you live in heaven
Getting up from the bed, I took my cellphone and slipped it in the back of my jeans pocket and then I dashed outwards.
I had to get answers.
From the same place I lost my everything.
××××××××××
As the cab hailed away, I looked up at the blinking Harrison Tower looking as sleek as ever. The whole world moved at same pace I had left it one week ago.
How was it the world kept moving when I had stopped?
I was burning and the world didn't give a shit.
Welcome to the reality, Eleanor!
Walking towards the building, I kept my head low because I knew I had red eyes and under eye bags.
The chapped skin and lips were an added cherry on the top. I didn't want the security to analyze my drug addict like state.
Getting in, I didn't bother going towards the reception. I knew my way around and my steps were hurried.
I went straight at the lift and pushed the button, opening it up.
The man inside tipped his hat at me.
And I nodded with a grimace, lately no one could get anything out of me . .not even a smile.
I didn't have it in me.
After few minutes, the doors opened and I knew the man had given me a curious look because . .the second I got out. .I started to run.
Run and run until I was standing in front of his door.
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With Love, Ryan (Shattered#1)
RomanceHe set fire to the world around him but never let a flame touch her. Eleanor Paige is a girl with anger management issues and a loud mouth. It's her first day at college! Just her luck to bump into the mysterious Ryan Harrison. Fate keeps getting t...