☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
Everything went black.
After awhile everything started.. flashing?
It was images of me..
one of me being ran over...
one of me drowning...
one of me being stabbed...
one of me being burned...
It kept going... on... and... on...
STOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOP
STOPSTOPSTOP
STOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOP
PLEASESTOPPLEASEPLEASE
STOPITPLEASE
JUSTSTOP
IWANTTHISTOBEOVER
PLEASE
JUSTKILLME
JUSTSTOP
JUSTENDTHIS
PLEASESTOP
JUSTKILLMEPLEASE
STOPSTOPSTOP
I woke up crying, I know it was a dream but It felt.. so real.
I realized my cuts had bled through my clothes and onto my bed,
Just aching pain all over my body.
I was still struggling to catch my breath as I slowly picked up my phone and looked at the time.
5:47 PM
He'll help me.. wont he? He did last night! But.. I don't want to bug him....
I dropped my phone on the bed and sat up slowly, feeling my body ache at every movement.
I got up off of the bed slowly, wobbling as I stood up. I walked into my bathroom and threw Shuichi's clothes into my laundry basket. I used the counter to hold me up as I grabbed my bandages and threw them in the trash, getting rid of all the evidence of what I had done. I walked out of the bathroom, still crying a bit, and walked out of my room, not bothering to change.
I slowly walked to Shuichi's dorm.
I walked and walked until I seen his room.
I knocked on the door softly.
In about ten seconds Shuichi opened the door.
"Kokichi....?!"
He looked at me in disbelief. I didn't know if I could talk properly so I responded with a weak smile and a nod.
He pulled me inside by my sleeve and closed the door behind me.
He sat me down on the bed, sitting next to me.
"I-I'm sorr-Sorry-.. I don't wanna annoy y-you but-........"
"No.. Its okay, you're not bothering me... what happened though...?"
He said while looking at the blood on my sleeves and pants.
"I-I.. don't wa-wanna tell you!...."
I just kept wiping tears away.
"Okay.."
"B-but I did have a- A really b-bad nightmare...."
"Oh?.. what was it about?"
"Stuff h-happening to me.... b-basically.. It kept showing me dying-.. I-in all different ways-........ I-I fucking hate nightmares....!!!!"
I yelled, still in pain and crying.
"Oh my god-... I'm sorry Kokichi.. Do you wanna stay in here with me..? For now atleast."
I nodded slowly and curled into a ball.
I felt his arm wrap around me and gently pull me into his lap. I cried into his shirt as he rubbed my back to calm me down.
"Th...thank you so... mutch Sh-..Shumai...."
"You're welcome.."
You're making this worse.
Stop trying to get close to him.
He is going to leave eventually.
Just stop.
"Saihara.....?"
"Mm?"
"Will y-you leave me...?"
I tried to stop crying but failed.
"Of course not, I'll stay with you for as long as you need, or want."
I blushed heavily and hugged his waist tightly while my head was still in his lap.
"C-can we just hang out tomorrow...? No school.. I just wanna hang out-........"
"Sure!"
He kept rubbing my back gently, I was just praying it wouldn't make the fabric open my cuts back up.
"But uhm... Kokichi? Why is there blood on your shirt and pants?- I'm worried.."
"O-oh?- don't be worried- please.... I'm fine- I-I just-........."
I wanted to smack myself for stuttering.
He just stayed silent.
"I-I cant tell you....."
"Oh.. That's okay."
I wanna tell him- He definitely wont feel the same though.. After all, I'm a stupid useless rat.
I sat up, moving out of his lap.
I looked at him and smiled weakly.
"C-Can I tell you something-..........?"
I blushed lightly and looked at the wall.
"Mhm?"
"If I said I had f-feelings for you-... Romantic feelings-....... What would you say-....?"
᪥oooh romance᪥
