I Still Do (bwwm) ᑕᗝᗰᑭᒪᗴ丅ᗴ

when i wore it better

"Well with the way you were screaming my name about an hour ago lets me know that he might be prettier than me, but he's not better than me. Is he, Princess?"

I laughed. I actually giggled a little.

Was he actually out of his fucking mind?

"Wow, so we get a little kitty, and all of a sudden we turn into a cocky asshole? Is that it, Jay?"

"I'm not being cocky if it's facts, Princess. Or do you not remember an hour ago when you were begging for 'Daddy' not to stop?"

I gave him an eye roll before looking away, hating the fact that after all this time, he still knew exactly how to set my body on fire.

"Yeah, well... at least I know he's not gonna ditch me."

Sure I was mad, but I was really just still hurting. I honestly wasn't sure if I'd ever be over Jared. He gave me the best thing in my life.

Jared's body slumped as he sighed, but when he rolled his eyes, something inside was telling me that he still didn't understand how bad I was hurting.

"Like I said, Jared... go home."

There was desperation written all over his eyes and as his eyes darted back and forth, he began shaking his head in disbelief.

"But-- but-- but what about what just happened?"

I let out a sad sigh, and shook my head, feeling the tears begin to burn behind my eyes. I had to look away before I let myself fall into him again.

"Closure."

"Fine, Tay. Goodbye."

Jay almost snorted and chuckled bitterly, staring me down in disgust. We stared each other down for what felt like days but were probably on a few seconds before he stormed out of the kitchen, heading for the front door.

I kept my distance as I followed him, but once the door shut after him, I ran to it, locking it before turning and sliding down it silently muffling my tears with the inside collar on my shirt.

After a minute or so, I pulled my body up and dragged myself upstairs, suddenly feeling way too exhausted, both physically and emotionally.

I stopped before I got to my room, heading into McKenna's instead. My eyes instantly darted over to the photo of Jared and me staring down in awe at our baby girl just a few minutes after she was born.

I had to tear my eyes away from the picture, and as my body shook, racked with tears, I knew Jared and I would never share a moment like that again.

Jared was getting married tomorrow and tonight was a mistake.
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"So, remind me again-- who's party is this?"

"It's not really a party. It's just a little kickback for one of the servers' birthdays."

"And Keegan's little friend...?"

I smirked a little before rolling my eyes and looking over at Kiana.

"His cousin, Jonah. He's in town for the weekend and he's coming with. Chill, he's actually kinda cute. Your mean ass might like him."

I stuck my tongue out, teasing Kiana before lacing up my white sneakers, and glanced in the mirror on my wall to see a weird look on Kiana's face.

I huffed and turned back to look at her.

"Come on, Key... for me? My mom's got McKenna for the weekend. I don't have work until later tomorrow night. Come party with me."

I pouted and fluttered my eyelashes a bit before Kiana finally smirked and rolled her eyes.

"I thought it was a kickback."

The doorbell rang a second later and I hopped off my bed, happily racing down the stairs before ripping open the front to see Keegan standing there with his cousin.

I launched myself into his arms, wrapping my arms around his neck as he caught me.

Holding my short frame in the air, he twirled me, sighing loudly in content once he had his arms around me. After a few moments, he sat me back down on my feet, keeping his hold on me while he looked down and smirked.

"I was wondering where my sweatshirt was."

I looked down and bit my lip before looking back up at Keegan. I ran my hands up his chest and laced my fingers around his neck.

"Hi, babe."

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