.21. shut down

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My leg bounces up and down. Nick is coming over this morning for a little breakfast.

He talked to Clay about things last night. He didn't tell him that we're together, but he tried to feel it out to see how Clay felt about us being together.

I fling the door open a few seconds after he knocks, "How did it go?"

"Not so good," he shakes his head, walking into my apartment.

"What do you mean?" I ask, following him to the kitchen.

"He just was against the idea is all," he shrugs.

"What do you mean?" I ask, grabbing two plates from the cabinet, "You have to tell me more than just that."

"That's what happened," he says a little aggressively, "I brought it up, and he shut it down."

"Then I guess we just have to tell him that we are dating no matter what he says," I say with a mischievous smile. I put two pancakes and some bacon on each of our plates.

"No," he shakes his head, "we can't tell him."

"Why not?" I furrow my brow as I ask.

"I don't know," he shrugs again. What is up with him today? He's acting like it's a surprise that Clay still feels the same way. I thought we basically already knew he wouldn't like it?

"That doesn't give me a reason why we can't tell him, Nick." I give him a pointed look as I hand him the pancakes. "I thought we agreed we were going to tell him either way?"

"We just can't tell him, y/n" he spits, "Why can't you understand that?"

I take a step back from the counter. My face flushes a little bit.

Nick has never talked to me that way.

He's always treated me like respect, and now he's acting like a jerk over something we already knew? I don't understand.

I wonder if they got in a fight. Did Clay find out? Did Clay say something that Nick didn't like? Did Nick say something that Clay yelled at him for?

No matter what happened. I think I should know. A relationship goes two ways, and communication is a huge part of how it flows smoothly. We were so good at it till now.

My blood boils a little bit. He talked to Clay about our relationship, so I have every right to know what's going during it. He can't just come in here and exclude me from the conversation, especially since I'm kind of a huge part of it.

"What is your problem?" I ask, setting a cup down on the counter a little too loudly.

"Nothing, I'm just tired." he says as he takes a bite of a pancake.

"Okay," I say coldly, "are you going to tell me what all happened once you wake up a bit?"

"I already told you,"

"No you didn't!" I say, frustrated. Why is he being so stubborn? He never acts this way.

What has gotten into him?

"I thought we were going to have a nice breakfast?" he asks, "Sit down and eat. It's really good. Thank you."

DId he just... change the subject?

You've got to be kidding me.

"No, don't change the subject," I tell him, "We were having breakfast to talk about it. II wasn't there, so you're the only one who could talk."

"I don't know what to tell you!" he says with his mouth full of food.

"Besides that we shouldn't tell him we're dating anymore?" I ask.

"Exactly." he nods once.

I roll my eyes. "You are impossible. Talk to me when you're out of whatever mood this is." I walk out of the kitchen and go to my own room.

I sit and edit for about an hour before Nick knocks on my door.

I wasn't sure if he was even still here. I couldn't hear anything out in the living room. I thought he might've left while he was angry, but apparently he stayed the whole time.

"What?" I say. I don't sound as mad as I did earlier, but I still sound annoyed.

Good because that's how I feel.

"Can I come in?" he asks quietly as he peeks his head in.

"Sure,"

He comes and stands at the end of my bed. "I'm sorry for being a dick."

"It's okay," I set the computer down on the bed, "but is everything okay? I mean, what was that?"

He sighs, "I don't know, he just didn't want us together and it really upset me."

"Well, we knew that he wouldn't want us together. At least I figured." I say.

Nick nods as he sits on the edge of my bed. "Can we just wait a little bit? I just need a little more time."

I sigh. I'm pretty sure he's not telling me the whole truth, but I don't want to push my luck by asking. I'm sure he'll tell me when he's dating.

I don't want to wait any longer to tell Clay we're together, but if that's what Nick wants, then that's what we'll do.

I nod once, "Yeah of course."

We have to wait until we're both ready, but I sure do hope that it's soon.

.author's note.

i stayed up so late last night and tonight i have to write such an important chapter... it's going to be great :))

anyways have a good day/night <3

.word count.. 901

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