on the other side • muke

e i g h t.

you guys know luke is like twenty in this and michael is twenty three. calum and ashton are twenty one and twenty two

old lil shits

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"nice to see you again, luke."

i took my seat in front of doctor hace, the chairs were squeaky and uncomfortable like usual.

"how is everything?"

"it's fine, can you ask a different question?" i huffed in annoyance and folded my arms over my chest. he nodded and wrote some things down. "what are you writing?"

"your behavior."

"what's wrong with my behavior?"

"it's..." he tapped his fingers on the chair which agitated me. "different."

"different how?" i asked through gritted teeth. he's been doing this all week and it's pissing me off. it's like he's trying to get on my nerves.

i told you he was the reason you're insane, lucas

"shut up shut up shut up!" i screamed. i yanked at my chair as tears where threatening to spill over. what was wrong with me? was i mad?

i got out of my chair and lunged at the guy.

i turned my head to see the door opened with two security guards. i screamed again as they pulled me off the floor, my eyes widening as i looked at the spot on the floor.

no one was there.

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"w-why am i here?" i asked, my eyes were probably puffy and red from crying. my throat was sore from screaming and no one bothered to give me a cup of water.

"you're here for your session with doctor hace correct?" a tall man asked, i nodded slowly.

"well he was running late and you seemed to have thought he was there already. the entire thing was recorded before you say anything."

my eyes darted towards the thick black screen in front of me. the small room showed up in black and white, a little fuzzy but you could still tell it was me.

i watched as i lunged at the floor, the security guards coming in to take me away, and then the video ended. it was only thirty seconds.

"we have a special facility tha-"

"no." i said calmly. i'm not crazy. it's all in my head.

is it though, luke? you never know

"okay, well nobody is forcing you. it's just we really think it could hel-"

"i'm leaving." i told them, they nodded and i left without another word. i decided not to tell calum and ashton what happened so i went straight to my house.

as i fumbled around for my keys, the small hole in the fence stared at me. i could feel it. i hardly ever went towards it after what happened and the headaches i couldn't deal with.

i unlocked my front door and stepped in the dark house. ever since i moved here the voices have gotten worse. but then again, when where they ever better? i made myself a glass of water and went over to my bedroom.

the small white lights i had hung up around my room with calum and ashton made me smile.

"stop! you're going to put too many!" i yelled, but couldn't help but smile. ashton had his arms wrapped around calum's waist as he strung up the lights. yes, you had to put them together.