Here I'm.
Here I'm thinking about you again.
Thinking what wrong I did which made you and me to drift afar.
Here I'm mourning with another failure,
regretting for my unknown action(s)
make(s) me hate myself forever.
Here I'm urging myself to be strong,
shouting inside this apex room,
relieving me from this exertion;
leaves my body sore.
Here I'm ignoring the throbbing of my heart,
hourly glancing at my feet;
numbing the human race around me and
creating an imaginary sphere.
Here I'm shimmering by the paths
where I caught your first glance,
which I allured and used to admire.
Thought finally life is leading somewhere.
Here I'm under the dimmed street paths
where we jointly embraced,
deprived our very first kiss and
where we bid our goodbyes with longing desires.
Here I'm bringing back this reminiscence,
swallowing this lump by the throat.
If only sorry(s) could bring back what we were a year before.
Thus, Here I'm solemnly swearing
never to be up front again,
making myself believe,
feelings are nothing but a wary,
with which I need to be discreet.
Here I'm upholding an evil steak fame,
thinking everyday that If It repeats,
I'll be the one to be shattered and
it will only deepen these wounds to the core.
Because that day for once I did,
for what I'm now afraid of;
and for twice if it's done,
I'll be the one to regret undesirably then fore.
Being all alone for so long,
didn't bothered me before.
But here I'm realizing that now It will for sure.
Here I'm waking up every morning,
inside this cold room, present with emptiness;
reminding me of your warmth;
making my counting days uphold and future no more.
Past actions and these memories
shall bother for a lifetime.
After all hereby,
I'll be all alone
and
all alone
Here I am.
- Cheki 23:45
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I fell for the WRONG person.
PoetryA short unrhyme poem. That describes my current situation. What had happened to me after falling in love, but not being able to reveal it. Was it worth it? After the poem the story will start. hope you all will like it. If any errors please comment...