Only If She Knew✔️

chapter :5

" I can't even look beautiful without this now ", Shehnaaz thought because her kajal was also ruined. She looked down with irritation and then towards the door. She opened the drawer and picked up a few tissues and wiped her face. She then applied minimum makeup and closed her eyes with determination not to think about Sidharth

Just then she heard the sound of the DJ turning on which forced her to remember their engagement.. she was engaged to Sidharth in front of his friends who further hated her and called her whatnot just because of her pregnancy. When they were engaged his friends forced them to drink when they were least interested but they took one which looked too much for them

Flashback start

"Sidharth I think this is too much", Shehnaaz said. Sidharth looked towards the time it was already 1; am and they didn't realise time with friends. They all were happy and enjoying their life to the fullest

"Han let's stay in our house as your parents are not here", Sidharth said. Fear of getting caught and guilt scared Shehnaaz. She is engaged without letting her parents know. She won't know if she should say yes to him or not because she is just 22. She don't want to stay in his house like this but time and fear of her parents scolding her for drink tensed Her

"Will drop you Sana come", Sidharth said softly. Shehnaaz agreed and looked down to hide her tears but when he kissed her forehead Shehnaaz hugged him with tears. She stayed silent as Sidharth understood what she is going through

"This is the namesake, Sana. We will be engaged again in front of your parents", Sidharth told softly. Shehnaaz nodded and stand up. She stumbled when she was trying to walk but Sidharth caught her. They both walked towards the car and asked the driver to drop them off. Once they reached his home they ran towards his room directly. Shehnaaz smiled when she noticed an album of her photographs with him. She hugged him tightly with love. Both started talking about the future and due to drinking they failed to notice that taking a big step in the relationship might force them to regret it again.

The next day Shehnaaz found herself lying beside him without clothes which scared her. It's not like she regrets everything but she wanted them to take this step after marriage. She cupped her face to hide her tears watching their position. She found his notebook and wrote a message to him telling him that this night was an accident. She doesn't regret it but wanted this special. She ran from there without meeting anyone and entered her home. Luckily her parents didn't arrive yet. She ran towards the washroom to recall everything. Everything looked like a nightmare to her. She just took a step without her parent's will. That was not what she wanted.

She is guilty and fear of him leaving her scared her as mostly her friends told her that buys leave girls are having one night stand

"N..no Sidharth is not like this", she thought and heard a car honk. She took a long breath to calm herself. She needs to look normal but the pain is not giving her peace. She wants him near her but can't ask him as her parents don't know anything about them. She called Sidharth to tell him but he didn't answer.

Flashback end

Shehnaaz wiped her tears recalling that day and then she remembered her further life which took 360° change. Before that night everything was just a fairy tale but after that everything changed. She remembered how her father told her that he meet Sidharth and said he know her before and his character is not good. She didn't believe him as her trust in Sidharth is much more to hear anyone's lies

She then remembered the day when she went towards her University and was badly bullied because everyone got to know she is pregnant with Sidharth's child. At that time she was not ready for an abortion but when they all questioned her character she left everything. She left University and ran towards her home to hide from the world

Her parents accused her of trusting a guy like Sidharth, and her friends forced her to believe that she was wrong it was her mistake and she deserved that. She was mocked for many reasons and those mean words revolved around her mind

"You lost a second chance Sidharth. You lost everything. It was not my fault. You left me a long ago. You were always a coward who used to run from every problem in college. You knew people think of girls as criminals because of mistakes and still, you left. You knew my dream was to become a businesswoman but just because of your mistake I am left uneducated. I left degree because of those hungry eyes who thought I am nothing just a tissue whom anyone can use and throw", Shehnaaz said to herself and wiped her tears. She washed her face and applied minimum makeup again. She chuckled as she already wasted money on this makup box and beautician but everything went in vain because of her tears. She loves spending time alone because she doesn't like talking with people much. She doesn't want to become habitual of someone's presence
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