Chapter 15: Healing and Bed

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I calm down after my breakdown and we both pull away from the hug. I continue to look down embarrassed about everything that just happened. She grabs both sides of my face and tilts it up so we make eye contact. With her thumbs, she wipes away the small tears still falling down my cheeks and smiles.

"I'm really glad you told me y/n. I don't know how you managed to keep that in so long. Have you talked to your other family at all?"

"No. I feel guilty that I haven't been there for them lately. We are all going through the same thing but I just can't help others yet, I need to help me first you know?"

"I understand. I would feel the same if I were in your shoes."

"I have been pretty busy with the farm too and just distanced myself from it all so it wouldn't feel so real. And it worked for a while. I was going to call them that morning we met but then, I got pretty distracted. Since the day I met you, my thoughts were only about you so I didn't have time to think about my mom or my family."

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." She says and breaks the eye contact.

"No Lizzie! That's not what I meant." I say quickly. "You we're just always on my mind and I think it helped me get through the beginning stages. Now I can just let out and accept that she's gone. I should call my family tomorrow." I say making a mental note.

"I think that is a really good idea. Was I really on your mind that much? And... what were your thoughts about?" She asks quietly.

Oh boy. Am I going to tell the truth and expose myself here? Not like I haven't done that already today.

"Well if I'm being honest there were a bunch of reasons. The first one was when I first met you but didn't know it was you. I couldn't stop thinking about how stupid I was for not asking for your phone number so I could see you again. Then, I saw the articles about us sitting in the coffee shop and was freaking out because I met you and didn't even realize. After that, we met again and I couldn't stop staring at you and thinking about how beautiful you looked. I can't stop thinking about how beautiful you look right now actually." I pause and start blushing even more than normal because my face is still red from crying.

She looks up at me with her big green eyes and a little smirk and my stomach does a flip. She makes me so nervous just by looking at me.

"You think I look beautiful?" She asks and I nod slowly looking in another direction. She puts her hand back on the side of my face and pulls it towards her lips. She slowly leans in and this time I am not backing out. Our lips connect and instantly all the mixed emotions I was feeling flow right out of my body and all I can think about is her soft hand holding my face and her lips against mine. We hold that position for a while making slight movements before she pulls away and grabs me for another hug.

"Thank you," I say and she doesn't respond but instead she squeezes me tighter. We both pull away and I look over towards where the sun used to be. It has already been set and we missed it.

"I'm sorry. We missed the sunset." I say, annoyed that I made her miss it. She was so excited too.

"Oh my god don't you dare apologize." She says. Wow, that came out of nowhere. "There are a million sunsets I could see but I much rather talk to you. And I'm glad you told me about everything." I share a small smile and she returns it as I stand up.

"Well, do you want to go back to the house now? it's getting a bit chilly."

"I would love to," Lizzie states and stands up next to me. I grab the blanket off the chilled grass and wrap it up in a little ball to carry it in one arm. I start walking towards the house and I feel a hand slide into mine. Her fingers close around mine as she grabs my arm with her other hand and holds it lightly. We walk the whole way back in that position until we get to my house. I let go of her hand to open the door and she walks in and takes her shoes off. I follow and do the same, throwing the blanket on the couch.

"It's 9:30 now," I state and she looks over at me confused about the random statement. "What do you want to do?" I ask Lizzie who is walking into the bathroom.

She turns around and looks at me for a moment before saying, "How about we just watch a movie on the couch? Would you be okay with that?"

"Of course I would. A movie sounds great. I will get changed into more comfy clothes and meet you on the couch in ten minutes."

"Sounds good." She says and walks into the bathroom.

I go into my bedroom and pick out some clothes to bring to my office room to change. I grab an all-blue Nike sweater and some black sweatpants to wear and underwear. I take them and walk to the office, passing Lizzie in the hallway. We smile at each other and I continue into the room. I close the door behind me and get changed.

I really can't believe I told Lizzie all that stuff about my mom. I haven't told anyone ever. It does feel good to let it out and I'm glad I told her. I feel closer to her now and I think that's a good thing, but I'm still not sure. The kiss though! I cannot believe it happened again. It's always her starting it though which means she probably likes me. Or maybe she doesn't and she just did it because I complimented her. What if she just randomly gets bored and decides to leave?! Ugh, my brain.

"Y/n!" She calls as I slip the sweater over my head. "Come on!"

"Coming!" I yell back. I feel her eyes follow me as I walk over and sit down on the couch. As I sit we make eye contact and she grins at me blushing slightly. Gosh, she's so dang cute I can't help but blush back especially thinking about our kiss.

"What do you want to watch?" I ask breaking the silence.

"Umm... how about life as we know it? Have you seen it before?" She asks.

"Nope. Have you?"

"No, I haven't. So do you want to watch it?"

"Sure," I say and grab the remote to put the movie on. Once the movie starts I grab the blanket that was hanging across the side of the couch and lay it across my legs. A few minutes later I look over at Lizzie who is watching the movie, and I notice she is cold.

"Lizzie. Are you cold?" I ask and she nods. I move over in her direction and put the blanket over her too so that it is on both of us. We continue watching the movie and I can feel her body relax as she warms up. I am pretty fixed on the movie but my focus is diverted to the newly added pressure of her head against my shoulder. I rest my head on top of hers and we lay like that for a while.

"Y/n," Lizzie says to get my attention. "Thank you for opening up to me today. Can I ask why me?"

"I'm not entirely sure myself. At the moment I felt close to you and today was so much fun. I felt like I could trust you and I don't know. I just really like you." I say, not knowing how to get my thought all out.

"I felt close to you too. I'm glad you trust me, and I like you too y/n." She says and I look at her, surprised about what I just heard. "You are so much fun to be around and I know we haven't known each other for a long time or anything but it doesn't feel that way. I'm not sure why but I have this feeling that we have known each other forever. That probably sounds stupid."

"No! It doesn't sound stupid. I was thinking the same thing." I reply.

"Really?!" Lizzie asks and I nod. She looks away and smiles making her dimples form in her cheeks. I can't help but smile too replaying her words in my head, I like you too. We go back to watching the movie in silence and our hands find each other connecting in the middle of our laps. I can get used to this...
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Hey everyone! I am loving this story and wish I could post more for all of you. I will try to sneak in a couple extra chapters in this week if I can because you are all amazing!

I have a question for you all. Do you think y/n and Lizzie are getting to close to fast or is the speed somewhat normal? Lmk what you think!

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