~Decisions~

~chapter 115~

SMUT I think

I look at the person.

Jinyoung

He smirks at me. I stare at him. I then look at Jackson. I look at him. He looks down. I turn my attention back to jinyoung. He grabs my waist and starts walking back. I dig my leg into the floor. We stop moving and he looks at me. "Cmon we are just going in the back"he says. I look at him.

"What if I don't want to go to the back?" I say. He smirks. "Then I'll have Jimin take you to the back" he says. I let out a shaky breath. "He can't do that. Not without permission" I say. "He's your husband. He doesn't need permission" he says. I sigh. "Just go lydia it's okay" Jin says.

"What if I don't want to?" I say. They look at me with serious faces. "We have given permission to every guy here. Go to the back" namjoon says with a serious tone. My eyes water. I look at him. Back at Jackson and he's just looking down. My body goes weak. I hand my purse to Suga. I just sigh. I look at jinyoung. "Take me" I say in barley a whisper. We walk to the back. He shuts the door.

"Why exactly are they doing this?" I ask him. He looks at me. "It's your punishment. They gave every guy here permission. Well in this room. They can force themselves onto you. That's why they told your cousins not to help." He says. I let a tear fall. "Baby it's okay" he says. "Let me pleasure you" he says. "I'm scared" I whisper. He looks at me. "Fine I'll call Jackson. But the punishment will be more hard" he says. I let out a shaky breath as he walks out. I shake out my hands. Tears fall uncontrollably.

I take a deep breath. I lay my head in my hands and Lean my body on the table. I let out a quiet sob. I feel a hand pat my back. I look up and see Jackson. I hug him and cry in his chest. "Shh it's okay" he says. "It's not okay. Jackson it's not okay. How can they allow that. The "WIFE" to be touched by others, to be...fucked by others" I say wincing at the thought. "They don't even know what happened when they were gone." I say. He looks at me. He kisses my forehead.

"It's okay just take 15 minutes to yourself here alone okay? and then I'll let kai come in" he says. "Kai?" I say. "Yes kai" he says. "Fine" I say. He kisses my cheek and walks out. I sit on the chair and calm myself down. I take a deep breath.

15 minutes later.

The door opens and Kai walks in. I look at him. "Are you alright now?" He asks. I nod my head. He walks towards me. "Let me know when you want to stop okay?" He says. "Okay" I say. He grabs my waist and lifts me up sitting me on the table. He spreads my legs so he's standing in between.

He connects our lips. Pulling me closer so his member is pushing against my center. I moan against his mouth. He starts to kiss my neck and pulls away whispering in my ear. "You make me feel so-" he says but I cut him off "mm-mhm" I say. He looks at me and I chuckle. He kisses me again. Biting my bottom lip making me moan. 

He kisses my neck and lays me down on the table. Lips still connected. His hands slide up my skirt. He grabs my waist from underneath and slides off my underwear. I look at him and put my hand on his chest. I take a deep breath and slowly nod my head.  I hear the sound of his belt being unbuckled. My heart beat quickens. He pulls my legs towards him.

He pulls down his underwear. I take a shaky deep breath in. He places his hands under my thighs to pull up my legs as he positions himself. "I'm going in" he says. I take a deep breath as he smashes into me. Making me let out a painful scream that is soon muffled by his hand covering my mouth. I squeeze my eyes shut as a tear falls from the corner. It fucking hurts.

I whimper. He removes his hand as he kisses my neck. Going in and out making me let out painful whimpers. "Stop moving! It fucking hurts" I say. "How much longer does this have to last" I say with a sad tone. "Mmmm..you can move now" I say with a whimpering moan. He slowly pumps himself in and out. I squeeze the table. "H-how mm-much l-longer" I say. "Till everyone here is pleasured" he says. I sob and moan at the same time. I squeeze the table. He picks up pace.

"F-fuck you feel s-so g-good" he says moaning. I arch my back as he kisses my neck. "Fuck" I moan. He looks at me. "Fucking you feels so good" he says. I let out a whimper. My arm finds his bicep as I squeeze it. He lifts my left leg high as he goes deeper. "You're  bleeding" he says. Tears falling from the corner. "It hurts" I say breathless.

"I'm almost close..lydia I'm gonna cum" he says. He connects our lips making both of us moan. He pulls out and I  try to catch my breath. "I'll call Jinyoung." He says fixing his pants. "No. I'm done. I can't do no more" I say. I sit up. I jump off and slip on my underwear. "I just wanna fucking drink and forget what happened" I say walking out.

I wipe my eyes and exit the room. I walk to the bathroom and wipe the blood. I fix my makeup. I fix my outfit. I take a deep breath and walk out. I walk to the bar tender. "15 shots. Keep them coming till I say stop" I say to the guy. He hands me a shot and I take one after another. I finish all 15 they don't phase me.

I Walk back to the room taking my last shot. My 16th. I set the glass on the table. I sit next to Jackson. I lay my head on his shoulder. "Don't let anyone come near me" I say breathless as I look at him.

"I won't"

Y'all this chapter is sad in a way! But I hope you like!