unconditionally//unrelentlessly

-- FORGOTTEN

i melt on your tongue
and dissolve into the minty stardust
that collects in the empty caverns of your heart,
forgotten

i wait, every day, every night,
oh-so-lonely behind the rotting bars of tendon in the jail of your heart—
for you
i wonder if you even know i'm there, waiting and hoping and wishingwishingwishing for even just look from you
so i won't feel like nothing more than a useless memory

you kissed me,
i fell in love
you kissed her,
she fell in love too
but i didn't see her loving you
and she didn't see me loving you
and so it goes,
you trample the hearts of many to dust
and still they can't fill the void in your chest
all the bodies pile up in front of you, devoid of hearts yet full of love
but you keep on climbing up

what do you expect to find at the top, anyways?

_
dear ___,
will your callous
search for love cease? do you remember me? will you remember the way i loved you?
-forgotten

october 1982
(when you moved
on to the next girl)